I can't believe I forgot to mention him! He's only the one person who keeps me smiling, makes me laugh and makes me feel like I'm actually worth something. I suppose I'm just so used to keeping quiet, but I'll explain that a bit later perhaps.
We've been seeing each other now for 6 months or so. My life was a bit of a mess then so I was thankful to meet someone who was so open and honest with me. He's good looking and he makes me laugh, so that's always a bonus.
Right from the word go he told me he was living with someone whom, for arguments sake, he is still in a relationship with. I know as soon as I found that out I shouldn't have taken it any further. He didn't want to without me knowing the full story.
I suppose I will be judged... I can't expect anything else really. It won't last forever, and I'm certainly not one of these psycho girls that is going to make him choose or try and force him to choose me over her. We enjoy each others company, and we make each other feel good. We provide the love and affection for each other that neither of us are getting otherwise.
He treats me so nice. Something I'm not used to. My ex was physically, mentally and emotionally abusive so it's refreshing to be in the company of someone who wants to be in my company, and enjoys having fun with me, instead of putting me down and bullying me. He buys me presents and cute little things without going over the top, whereas before I had never recieved so much as a card in the three years I was with my ex.
It would be easy to judge me, I guess. I'm not perfect, but then no-one is. I doubt anyone has ever lived there life and done everything by the book. Made no ill choice or mistake, or even done something they know they probably shouldn't. And I really don't need anyone else judging me when I'm doing that enough for all of us.
Not quite the happy, cheery entry one would expect when talking about the other person in their life, but there you go. At the end of the day we make each other happy and, although it isn't going to last forever, it works for the time being. We're both adults.
I suppose I should save this here before I start talking even more rubbish!
hope everyone had a lovely Easter Weekend. |
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