Good News and Bad

Well I told you guys that I've been sick for a while now, yesterday the pain got so extreme that I went to the hospital. They took a piss test and decided that they wanted to do some x-rays of my stomach to check and make sure my intestines were okay...but first (even though I've been taking birth control) they decided to take a pregnancy test just to be on the safe side. Turns out as I'm sure you've already guessed that I AM pregnant again On one hand I am of course happy, but on the other hand I am terrified. I am happy because now Isabel will have a sibling, and of course because a mother always loves their children..but I am terrified because its going to be HARD work being a full time worker, a college student, and a mom with two little ones under the age of two at home at the same time! It's going to be difficult but I WILL make it through this, I HAVE to go to college so I can make a life for my family, and I HAVE to go to work so we can survive and of course I would never choose to not be a mom. After all becoming a mother was the best thing I ever did. So thats the good news guys!
The bad news is that John and I are arguing right now...long story so bear with me! John's father is AWFUL, he talks to everyone like they are the lowest of life forms and treats his kids like they will never amount to anything. Even his son Josh who owns his own home, land, multiple cars, is happily married and has a great job is a piece of crap in his eyes. Well when I was pregnant with Isabel John and I ended up having to live with the man for a few months. It was the worst experience of my life, for four months solid I was cussed out, made fun of and lied about every single day. It finally got to the point that John couldn't take it anymore. One day his brother Jason decided that he wanted me to clean the house, which would have been no problem except that he expected me to use bleach. One I am allergic to bleach in the first place and two I was pregnant and didn't need to be around strong fumes like that. So John told him that I would clean the house only if it was agreed upon that I not use bleach. Immediately Jason blew up he called me a fat lazy b*tch, a nasty c*nt...the works. Needless to say he and John got into an argument, then to top it all off Jason got on the walkie talkie with his dad who was at work and told him that I was refusing to help around the house. James (John's dad) then began to abuse me as well, so John immediately packed our belongings in the car and moved us back down here. After that day I told John that I would no longer have anything to do with James and that if I did it would be only at family get togethers and NEVER at James' house! Well since then James has done everything he can to get John to leave me, and when we took Isabel to a family get together to meet James he ignored her, didn't even look at her once. To top it all off he also wouldn't look at me or John, no congrats to his own son. He's never called to see about her and NEVER since the day John and I got together been over to see his son, more or less his granddaughter! But now John wants to be angry with me for sticking to my word, I WILL NOT put myself in a situation where I am unhappy ever again, like I said if James happens to be at a family get together at someone else's house I will be civil but I will NEVER, NEVER go to that mans house again!!!! End of story!! Outtie and caio!

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