It was a sign
I went to see my adoption counselor today to look at scrapbooks of adoptive parents.
Low and behold, she had brought along the scrapbook of the online couple I picked out (without knowing I had already picked them out), and I took it as a sign.
I did look at the other scrapbooks (which were easier to look at then the profiles online), and I even looked at the adoptive couple I had picked out (and posted an entry on) online.
It was nice because it had a picture of the outside of their house, and a lot of pictures that wern't shown online.
I decided to set up an appointment to meet with them.
It was hard for me to make that step, because I'm such a shy person, and I get social anxiety easily...but this step has to be done at some time, and the sooner the better I think.
As my adoption counselor said, this is kind of like a blind date; since we never met.
My mom has been coming to every appointment with me, and this will be the first appointment where she will not be there.
I chose this because if there is not as much of a connection with the adoptive couple as I think there will be, I can pick out another couple.
If there is a connection (as I'm hoping there is), I want my immediate family (mom, dad and brother) to meet the adoptive couple.
Since I only want my immediate family that I listed to be at the hospital with me, I don't want it to be an ackward first meet right before I go into the surgery room to get a c-section.
The adoptive couple is getting a phone call today, and are going to be informed that there is a birthmother who is interested in meeting them.
Since I am interested in the adoptive couple, I can receive a copy of the home study Bethany Christian Services does for every adoptive parent's home.
Then, the adoptive parents make an appointment to meet with me.
As for now, I'm just waiting for the call back on the time they want to meet.
Thanks for visiting.