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I am an almost 40 year old mother with 2 teenage boys. I have suffered from Bipolar Disorder since the birth of my first son, but am stable on medication and bi-monthly therapy. I have been married to my high-school sweetheart for 17 years, and am still very much in love. In 2007 I went back to school and took classes on becoming a C.N.A, and have been working at the same nursing home for 3 years in June-but I only work per diem as my schedule and illness will allow. I have been keeping a journal since I was 15, and have accumulated a pretty sizable collection of paper journals....I figured that now was the time to try writing in a computer journal...maybe to not feel so isolated in the act, and maybe to get feedback from others who feel as I do. I am also a read-a-holic, my husband buys me 2 or 3 new paperbacks a week, but I seem to regularly find myself with nothing to read....

I've have dabbled some in writing, alot of poetry...years ago I had over 30 poems published, but haven't really pursued publication in awhile. I have about 5 short stories written, and tons of novels that I have started, but once I write in a certain voice, if I don't finish it, and I try to go back to it, I lose whatever I thought I had.......the biggest problem that I have, is I'm afraid that if I write it, it won't be good enough, so therefore I put it off.....

I have my ups and I have my downs, and sometimes I have my ups and downs within hours of each other...and it is usually apparent in my writing whether I am having a good day or a bad day.....

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