and it starts to show on my face. | 06/16/2009 |
Currently: [Tick Tock:] 1041pm
[Ends In Y:] Tuesday
[Munching:] Nothing
[Slurping:] Nothing
[Not Naked:] Journey's shirt & yoga pants
[Air Pollution:] Kings of Leon: Use Somebody
[Chit-Chatting:] Nobody
Scream Me A Love Song. Emotions are erratic, unpredictable, irrational, rational, horrible, amazing, and everything else that falls between. They make you happy to be alive and able to feel, but can also make you regret the idea of being able to feel. The can make you laugh and smile, but they can also make you hurt and cry. It seems unfair that you have no control over how you feel. Yes, you might be able to suppress the emotions you don't want to feel... You might even be able to control certain ones... But, eventually they all come back to the surface. They scream at you to feel. They want you to feel. No matter the pain that may come with that emotion. They don't care that you might face your feelings and end up broken on the inside (and outside) because of it. And once you allow an emotion to be felt, it doesn't just go away. It doesn't suddenly stop existing. It's there to be felt... Felt for however long it feels is necessary. You can't escape them. You can't run from them. They're just there. They're always there. Waiting to be felt. To be known. They're beautiful and terrible. I expect them not to make sense. To be confusing. They wouldn't be emotions if they were easy. What I don't understand if why you're allowed to feel a certain way about someone... Why they're allowed to get so rooted into your heart that if they were taken away it would feel like a piece of you went missing and have them not even notice that you went missing?! No one seems to gain anything from something like that... So, why put someone through it? Why does their heart open so for someone who chooses to keep their heart closed from them? Why does it have to hurt so much and when will it stop? Emotions hurt. All the time. Even when they're happy ones, because eventually the happiness disappears.
I just want someone to pick up my broken emotions and promise to keep them close to them. They don't have to put them back together, just hold them close to their heart.
=/
Shannon
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