Currently:[Tick Tock:] 1155am
[Ends In Y:] Tuesday
[Munching:] Nothing
[Slurping:] Nothing
[Not Naked:] Got Milk? hoodie & yoga pants
[Air Pollution:] GNR: Sweet Child O' Mine
[Chit-Chatting:] Dee Dee & Erina
Scream Me A Love Song.Letting go is hard. Accepting the fact that something that was so important to you, isn't as important to the other person involved is difficult. You don't want to believe that you could feel so complete with this person in your life, and that you never mattered to them. To say it doesn't hurt would be a lie. Of course it hurts. Of course I'm going to want to believe what other people to tell me. Of course I'm going to want to believe that this is all his way of pushing me away. That he doesn't want to like me, so he's trying to convince himself that he doesn't. But that just seems so unlikely, that I can't believe it anymore.
I didn't want to give up on this. I didn't want to believe that it was nothing, when it felt so much like my everything, but I've run out of options. He doesn't miss me. He doesn't want us fixed. He just wants to replace me. Maybe he'll realize his mistake, but it's too late. I deserve better then this. Here's hoping it finds me.
Shannon
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