I think I'm done with bloop.
It's kinda... tragic. In a way.
But I think I'm finally done.
There's too much... bloop, at bloop.
Too many bad memories.
Too many things covering my words.
I'm sorry.
hmmmm sign into fbook more often than! i don't have aim or msn anymore.. and my poor lappity top is already so old and tired, adding more programs sends her into a tizzy.
i'm mostly on gchat.. but thanks to youth ministry and work i'm on facebook quite a bit.
You know I care.
I nearly didn't say anything, because it seemed so obvious that it made me think that your brain was hiding it from you for a reason, but you seemed to want to know.
It is kinda a jerk thing to do. It really makes it look like he was just plugging you into the "other parent" role until he found something better, and makes me want to hit him. Because it's not fair to you, and it's not fair to the poor kid. You are his dad, regardless of whatever.
Anway. You're one of two people I still keep track of on bloop. I'm rooting for you. Let me know if I need to bring out my knives. I'll find my way down there.
it wasn't obvious to me. I mean I couldn't put my finger on why I was/am kinda offended and pissed off by it. But now I have it in words... Maybe it'll help when I talk to him about it... if I do... And if I mention that part of it... Bah in any case I don't think I can talk to him yet. Seeing Gabe tomorrow though
Yeah, I know it wasn't obvious to you. When I thought about it, it's like... when you walk into a awful gruesome murder, and there's that moment when you see it, but you don't understand it, because your brain is hiding it from you. And you have to have this conversation with your brain "I know it's terrible, show me anyway."
Iunno. You know?
I have a dreamwidth account that I haven't used at all, but my excuse is exams/sex, which is far more important than writing.
*grin* I'm on fetlife.
I'm on msn. I have a yahoo but I'm never on it, even though that's my primary email.
Pick your poison.
ryc: Is tequila full of gluten? I don't think it is. it's cactus. My ex was on the keto diet. (no glucose--- always keeping your body in a state of ketosis, etcetc). He always drank whiskey. not sure if that helps you
I actually refuse to buy diet books. Pointless in my opinion.
My diet started with a competition of "who can give up processed sugar the longest". That was the hardest part---but I did it. And haven't really looked back. (I don't eat any artificial sugar on principal-- but we said "anything that isn't natural (like honey) can't be eaten."
that lasted about 2 months. I dropped a shit-ton of weight almost instantly and felt AMAZING.
after that-- he went on Keto and I went on paleo. (I didn't want to give up fruit or onions!) for the most part-- it HAS been pretty life-changing. I don't follow it super strictly---but when I went on vacation and did NOT follow it (ate bread, lots of sweets, etc) i felt like ASS. Had HUGE bags under my eyes and couldn't crawl out of bed. (it was like I was hungover all the time). On top of that-- I felt bloated, too.
I think it's great practice to give up things for 30 days (or any amount of time) just to test your willpower. It teaches you a lot about yourself and your limits--which is what Crossfit is all about, right?
ryc: The actual birth was easy - 90 mins of contractions, 20 mins of pushing. I did it with no pain relief, mainly in my living room (it was a planned homebirth). Unfortunately, because I dilate so fast (approx 4x faster than normal, my first labour was the same), my womb seems to shut down after the birth and refuses to push the placenta out without help. If I have anymore kids, I'll have a managed 3rd stage. Not risking an unmanaged again!
RYC. I agree it's messed up. And LMAO at the "do you want to get married and move here" part. Wish I could go somewhere this could be dealt with seriously.