Last night I had a melt down.. I don't know what my problem was.......ok well so I do. After work I met my ex on the road 4 times...It was kind of bizzare. But all in all, it made me feel down. I started thinking about all the good times him and I had.....and I really starting missing him the teras started coming and they just wouldn't quit, I cried off and on from 4pm-12pm....I cried until I felt sick......my eyes were so swollen and hurt so bad...but I think it really did me some good b/c I feel a lot better about it today.....I think I hit a point where maybe things are going to get better, or at least I hope.....I know I should be over him, its been a 1 year and 3 months but it's hard, really hard. It's not that hard to move on but it is VERY hard to not look back!! It's obvious that he hasn't had a problem moving on with his life so why should i...i guess that's b/c i reallly actually loved him.but everything he told me was just a lie. but sometimes I really wish we could still be friends, he said he'd be my friend but I suppose that was another one of his lies b/c he doesn't even talk to me but go figure. well anyway im kind of glad that I cried it all out, IT HELPED! I feel so much better about it today......well im off to go bake..woo hoo!! ttyl! |
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