a year later

05/05/2011

hello this is amy i started my diary like a year ago and lost internet so i only wrote a few entries but im back now and plan to write more since i was last on here my husband and i temperarily seperated his choice he slept with this girl i thought was my friend im haveing a hard time letting that go even tho we have been back together a few months. my other friend moved in with us and started acting like a jerk and telling my husband lies behind my back so she isnt my friend anymore she treated me shitty after i did so much for her shes not the one that slept with my husband tho. my kidneys are doing ok so are my overys i found out im pregnant and due in august but im skeptical because ive moved alot and havent gotten the exams i needed plus im not growing much and because of my overy issues my body acts pregnant when its not i had a positive test and stopped cycle thats what the dr was going on i hope its accurate im currently looking for an obgyn.my family still dont talk to me im concidered the disapointment because i made mistakes even though im not the only one its awfull how they treat me ive had a rough life and have no support except my husband but he does alot to purposly upset me. i no longer have friends everyone i had as a friend screwed me over in one way or another im tired of the drama i want more for my life but it just wont stop. hope you are all doing well