the ex fi'ance sam i mentioned in a previous entry is driving me nuts he drove me into the arms of other men with his bad choices includeing drug use i have tried so hard to help him get clean.i am takeing the steps i need to better myself and get back on my feet hes much older than i am and isnt doing anything but staying at a seperate shelter and rideing A bike all the time chillin under local bridges doing God knows what with God knows who.im chooseing to be single and better myself. maybe oneday i will find a guy who isnt a total idiot but untill then im working on myself I wish I chose men better but we all make mistakes its part of being human. |