i hate that people at tent city wont stop spreading lies and rumors about me causeing chris to not even pick up the phone look i hate mental hospitals but im so angry,depressed,and stressed out that i may end up going to one for a few days just to attempt to calm down cause the chris situation and the fact that other people are causeing him to feel like ignoreing me cause he listens to other people that is enough to drive anyone crazy expecially me i searched my whole adult life for a good guy and now that i found one people gatta start shit and make him not want me wow i just keep getting kicked when im down and knocked down when i start to get up is their any winning for me damn!!!! i cry all the time cause chris isnt answering my calls or texts and isnt calling me texting me or comeing to visit me i cant handle this its painfull i dont know whats going on i worry that its over and i just dont know it yet i worry that hes hurt or dead i worry that since hes on probation he got violated i worry that hes cheating or found someone new or changed his # i have a million posibilities running through my head and so much worry i wish he would just get ahold of me and quit torturing me like this... |