so in March 2013 I got a job and Chris and I moved into a motel we stayed there till July during that time I got pregnant for the 3rd time by Chris and miscarried. I lost my job in early July and Chris and I became homeless again I got another job and Chris and I moved into a motel at the end of July then moved into an expensive apartment in early August. I finally got supplemental security income in mid August and now as of Friday October 18th we are living in a cheaper apartment. Chris and I have been together for a year and a half he perposed to me last October and he still at times is a jerk and he still has an issue with my weight but for the most part we are doing ok he sometimes threatens to leave when he gets frustrated.he still studies chess and he doesn't work I financially support both of us.I sometimes feel underappreciated by Chris. I lied to him several months ago and he hangs it over my head a lot he pretends like he does nothing wrong and I'm always the bad guy and he says I blame him for everything sometimes I blame him for stuff but I'm blaming him for stuff thats actually his fault not stuff that he's not doing wrong he thinks because I lied to him that he has every right to treat me like crap what I think is wrong and not only that but he keeps complaining about me. he blames me for the reason that the housing voucher fell through even though it wasn't really my fault he says I could have done more to make sure that I got the voucher but I did the best I could he also hangs this lie over my head that I did several months ago and I apologized for I mean I'm faithful to him I support him financially I support him with his chess dream and sometimes he's just a total ass to me and I don't understand why but I try to do the best I can to deal with everything I know he loves me and I love him even though we fight sometimes its just been rough on us having to be homeless and now we struggle to pay household expenses sometimes its just been rough and we're trying to make the best of everything.sometimes I'm scared he's going to leave or cheat or lie or do something terrible but I try to have faith in our relationship. so Nick and I are about to be divorced I filed and now all i gotta do is go to court on the 25th of November 2013 hopefully I'll be divorced soon cause I'm tired of being married to that creep. Chris and I have been engaged for a year now and I don't know if he's serious about marrying me or not he keeps mentioning my weight and how he's not going to marry me till I lose weight which i think is really mean of him to say you know I'm really sensitive and he tends to always hurt my feelings on a daily basis and he always b****** at me a lot like he's so mean about stuff and he always complains and moans but he has a good side to sometimes makes the food or washes my back in the shower or he will wait on me hand and foot sometimes you know so he does help me out sometimes he helps me clean and wash dishes and he does some laundry. I love Chris and I hope things get better between us I'll give you more updates when I can | 
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