I wrote this yesterday.
...Or was it the day before? Meh, either way, it's here now.
did i forget to take my happy pills this morning?
no. I didn't. My life sucks even when i do take them. Jumping off a bridge certainly seems like an attractive option. Need a brain transplant desperately. Ive said it before and i'll say it again: adhd ruins my life every motherfucking day. I'm not in the mood to fuckijng justify that belief or explain it and i'll kindly ask that you politely smile and nod because if one more person challenges me i will start breaking necks.
i totalled my car. The day after i just paid my insurance on it for the next fucking year. Shoould have just paid for third party. Anyway fuck it. It's gone. I can't work business hours now. I can only work when luke is home to drive me to every goddamn outcall i do. Yeah, that's hot, having your whore turn up in his boyfriend's ute. Righto. He has to drop me to clinic too which means i'll be there at 7am when oh fuck it just sucks alright. Wish i could have offed myself in the collision too. Bloody airbags.
my stepson was in the car with me. He wasnt hurt but he was very very scared. Holding me so tightly after i dragged him from the car. He had bit his lip in the impact so his mouth was bleeding. I am the worst stepdad ever. I was speeding and it was raining. The weird thing is that i never speed. I was fucking daydreaming.
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*big hugs* The main thing is you are both safe! xxx
