DeVisualise Add Fave Search
Not Logged In
0
Your Username:
Your Password:

[ sign up | recover ]

an empty frame.'s Diary
by an empty frame.

previous entry: The break.

next entry: All bad news

I don't want to die but I don't want this life

06/15/2011

All the men I know are hurtful bastards. And yet I'm too addicted to let them go. Clinging onto my two men for life and yet they both break my heart on regular occasions. I am so alone and so lonely. My life is meaningless and I feel like I'm already dead. I don't know where to go from here but it doesn't really matter because I'll be homeless soon enough anyway. All of this is my own fault. I'm happy to admit to my mistakes but taking responsibility? Fuck me. I don't know how I've survived the last ten years considering I have zero life skills.

previous entry: The break.

next entry: All bad news

0 likes, 6 comments

[ | add comment ]

Add Comment

Add Comment

Please enter the following WHITE digits in the box below.
Confirmation Code

You do have life skills. You have taken care of Luke all this time!

[BeccaRellyStar|0 likes] [|reply]

No, he's taken care of me!

[an empty frame.|0 likes] [|reply]

I love you, boy. I don't know what you're going to do either.
I don't know if fault plays into it. You aren't the only one in any of your relationships that is broken. You just can't pass for sane, and for some reason that matters.
I'm not the praying type, but I have warm thoughts for you with no expectations on how you'll use them.

[a little one|0 likes] [|reply]

I need advice from you regarding Young, but I don't know if it matters anymore. But if I decide it does, would you mind helping me with what to do about him?

[an empty frame.|0 likes] [|reply]

Anything I can do for you, is yours.

[a little one|0 likes] [|reply]

He's not interested in anything anymore (I think he's depressed), including me. Do I hang on or give up? I totally understand why he might be acting so cold but is it worth continuing being tolerant/understanding/patient when I'm certain he doesn't appreciate it and he won't face his issues? I miss him and love him so much but he is so uninterested in me right now and I'm getting really offended.

[an empty frame.|0 likes] [|reply]

previous entry: The break.

next entry: All bad news

Online Friends
Offline Friends