Luke and I were at his dad's house today. It is a sad place now. We used to visit, and despite my dislike for family gatherings, there would always be smiles and laughter. I felt, well, I still feel, accepted in their family. But now when we visit, it is so quiet and the smiles and conversations are forced, and when they're not, there is sadness and tears.
Anyway. So we visited his father. Luke mentioned, randomly, that he has decided to come out of the closet at his work. It was the first I'd heard of it. I can't say that I agree with his decision. There is a reason he's been straight-acting and I think that given his job (he works in construction) it's a good one. He says fuck the consequences, he doesn't care if he is treated differently. He's sick of pretending. I'm sure that whatever happens, he can deal with it. I'm sure he won't just walk in one day and be like, "hey guys! Guess what? I'm gay! I know, right? You had no idea! Lolz!" hehe but I'm just worried that he'll be hurt if/when they react negatively to the "news".
I don't think it's the right time for him to be making big decisions like that, that's all. He's depressed, easily aggrivated... He says that he was thinking of doing it before his mum died, but of course, it's always been on his mind. I hope he takes my advice and waits a week before making a definite decision on this. I just don't know if he could deal with the consequences as well as he would in his normal state of mind. Le sigh.
It is nice to play the carer role for him. I've been pampering him. Massages galore. Making meals for him... Cold ones, because I burn everything. The other day I drew him a bath and washed him. He loved it. We had amazing sex after that, hehehe. Mmm...
Adios, bitches.
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if Luke loses his job due to his sexual orientation thats grounds for legal action.