ramble before drug induced sleep

02/22/2011

Clean carpet. Joy of all joys! Finally the bags for our vacuum cleaner were in stock, I mean jeez I'd only gone back TWICE to get them, and couldn't find them anywhere else... Never did I think the hunt for ... you get the point... but this morning I vacuumed the carpet with a nice new empty bag and it is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CLEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN I mean I thought it was clean before but now it's clean clean and it's amazing. I love carpet. Don't tell thelaaaaaaydeeeeeeez.

I am sleep deprived like alll fuck (previous entry was written at 4am) so I've taken some sleeping pills and here's hoping like fuck they workededeed because last time thhey didnt, so I took twice as much now, blehhhhhh. It's so hot. I need to shave my head because my hair feels uncomfortable. I don't know how Luke can stand having long hair in this weather. I can't. My nape piercing is still infected or some shit because my hair grows quickly and also I'm sweating and probably because I'm always on my back with my legs in the air on someone else's pillow and that's probably not helping it stay clean either OMG my poor beloved piercing. I'd just take it out but the scar will be worse... but then again I don't really give a fuck about the scar, I just love my piercing and I'm attached to it or rather it's attached to me so I won't go. I mean, I won't ... take it out. Nosirreeeeeeeee. I'm hanging out til the winter where I can treat it properly and not have it fuck up on me from the weather.

Nothing seems to be healing. I had a scratch on my leg the other day and I didn't realise until I had blood dripping down my entire leg and it felt a bit tickly so I looked and I was like "shiiiiiiiiiit!" Seems like I am bleeding all over the place. I would have a new piercing ir two or three = by now (I used to get the urge for a new piercing every couple of months or so) but for this simple fact I am putting it off until the winter when I will see how my nape piercing is going and blah blah blah talking in circles.



I LOVE kanye wests new album but its so dark i cant listen to it because the lyrics like seep into my brain and i get angry and depressed and hwen i listened to it for the first time, i was amazed by the words i was like wow this guy is fucked up and brilliant and honest and raw and i love it not that i want to encourage it so i don't feel a damn bit guilty about downloading the album, not that i ever feel guilty about that shit I MEAN I FEEL GUILTY ABOUT EVERYTHING ELSE I DO SO GIVE ME A FUCKEN BREAK JESUS CHRIST anyway... point is.. first time i listened to the album, i was depressed for like, three days, and sitting in the bathtub bawling my eyes out considering suicide and i was like ... FUCKEN KANYE WEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .........so I make a point of only listening to that album now when I'm in a good mood and I listen to it really loud because the music behind it is what I'm digging but I can't handle the darkness (I'm such a fucken pansy these days it's like the littlest thing pushes me over the edge now) as soon as I start singing along to the words I have to turn it off. Sucks. I really like it. I don't listen to it at night time either. Jeez. So yeah I recommend the album but only for mentally stable people LOL not sobbing sacks of shit like me. Spank Rock though... Spank Rock is something I can recommend to EVERYINE



Mmmmm waves of blisssssssssful sleep goonihjt