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This was a triumph
by Chris

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Am I no longer happy at my job?

10/22/2020

I've landed a dream job. Really. I was able to get a job in the field that I want, in one of the most prominent tech companies in South Florida. I have flexibility, I'm respected at my position, I'm able to be candid with my boss, I'm not micromanaged. But I've been there for nearly 2.5 years now, and I'm growing impatient. I know there are opportunities for growth, but they just don't happen at a rate that I'm comfortable with. Sometimes, I feel nervous or dread coming into work because I feel like even though I know I bring a lot to the table at my job, I have self-esteem issues when it comes to my knowledge of the environment. I'm the lowest paid member of the team, including a couple of people who were hired after me (apparently because they had more experience, but I still had to train them). I felt like I have accomplished everything that I've been allowed to accomplish, and I find myself bored, and thinking about doing literally anything else. I can't sit still, and I want to find another job.

On the other hand, I feel like jumping ship to a grass that looks greener from the other side of the fence might not be the best move right now in the interest of stability, considering I have a child to look after, and a wife to care for who hates her job, and wants to quit and be a full time mother. Should I stick with it in the interest of my kid? I don't know how to sit still, and I'm always get uncomfortable around the 2 year mark, and end up burning myself out because the slightest effort at something I really don't want to do puts me into a lot of stress.

I need to think clearly and logically about all of this. I don't think I'm going to outright quit unless the one job I have my eyes on sees me as a potential candidate. This job will be a clear, undoubted step upward by every stretch of the imagination. And I have a good shot at getting my foot in the door. It's definitely something to think about.

Anyway, enough rambling. I'm going to go distract myself with something that doesn't stress me out.

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If you can speak candidly with your boss, why can't you ask for a raise and more responsibility? Maybe you're not being challenged enough.

I finally asked my boss for the position I wanted and got it. It's not anymore pay because both positions get paid the same but its what I want because I'm burned out of the position I was in. I began training my replacement this morning.


[Greta GarbageStar|0 likes] [|reply]

So that conversation did happen. It was a no go. Because I was technically hired on as a "junior" tech, despite the fact that my title or current responsibilities don't reflect that, it wouldn't be approved. After that conversation, I think I started eyeballing around some other jobs. I already know that I'm not being challenged enough. Another ongoing conversation not only with my boss, but entire management chain, is the lack of training opportunities. They simply won't pay for training. They won't pay for school, they won't pay for industry certifications, but said that we can join these tangentially-related courses whenever they come to the office, like AWS courses that I'll never use.

I'm in this position mainly because I'm not being challenged and that I feel stuck because despite the company being world renowned for upward mobility, I feel handicapped because of the fact that I was hired on as someone with less experience, despite that being a verbal statement, and not reflected anywhere in writing, whether it's my HR file, my title, my job responsibilities, anything. Just my salary. It sucks.

[Anonymous SourceStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Ok then I don't blame you for wanting to move on. They can't boast upward mobility while keeping you on the low rung. Time to move on.

[Greta GarbageStar|0 likes] [|reply]

If your emotional health is being effected then I am all for well thought out changes. I wouldn't suggest quitting on a whim and hoping for something better. If you have money saved up & a plan for another job then there's nothing wrong with changing. If you are waking up full of dread then that could have a strain on family life too.

Good luck, hope you find some clarity!

[-Trish|0 likes] [|reply]

I think the pandemic has opened me to a lot of similar thoughts too - I am really grateful to be in a job, but my job is so draining at the moment it's made me wonder if it's really what I want to be doing with my time. It's a tough call that I'll need to make soon.

[The RyanStar|0 likes] [|reply]

If you've got a good connection with your boss, I wouldn't trust the fact that the grass will be greener on the other side!

[MarkStar|0 likes] [|reply]

After today, I don't even fully know that I have as good a connection with my boss as I thought I have. She very sweet, and she will always go to bat for her direct reports, but...

I don't know man, I don't like my salary situation, or how I was talked down about it, when I'm at least as technically sound as everybody else on my team, all of which who make a pretty good more of a salary than I do.

[ChrisStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Yeah - I feel you there.

I am going through a very similar situation at the minute.

I hope things work out for you!

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