Annnddd start the rant:
j1 has some serious issues in selecting his women sometimes. I mean really. So there's this one chick he slept with a few times (let's call her cunt-face.. nope, no resentment there >:]) and she is gross. I mean seriously. It's not like he's bad looking! (Actually he's more like model status) He could do waaaaaay better. (aka: me! haha let me not get carried away)
But seriously this makes me feel kinda gross cause now I know he doesn't exactly discriminate what is hot and what is not. Oh also, she's his roommate. Ew. I mean he stopped sleeping with her cause he realized she's a crazy bitch. Still, his initial choice to fuck her..... ughh.
OH and then there's this other girl. Sweet girl, I like her a lot. But I'm actually a tad jealous of her. (I know, bad start) Only cause she's a good friend of his, that's really the only reason. (It's like the notion of an emotional affair vs. a physical affair) I just don't want her to replace my "bestie" role, nah mean? Anyway, here's the thing: a month or two ago (before we started messing around), he went down on her because "she really needed it and I was being a good friend to her". I don't really understand that idea, but I'm not about to argue it. That makes me wonder if he's messing with me because he's "being a good friend" and he knows that I needed a lay? I mean I really hope that's not the case... I'd like to think he's sleeping with me because he has an innate desire to.
But yeah, I need to check myself. No sense in getting jealous. I mean I have high standards for him. If he's gonna sleep with someone she better be hot enough for me. I mean don't get me wrong, I have no issues with him sleeping with random women, they just need to be of a certain caliber. I won't be lumped together with a bunch of nasty, easy skanks! Though I guess I am a skank since I'm not in a relationship with him. But whatever, I tried the relationship shit for 9 years, and it didn't exactly work out for me then. Time for a seriously, totally irresponsible change. TTYL |
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