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Beyond Belief
by A RedSox Fan

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06/17/2014

It’s June 17th. This month is flying by and I don’t even know why.

JOB…I’ve had it.

So we got a new manager of the house I work at 2 months ago. I asked him a few times for a meeting and he had not given me one. It has frustrated me that he first told me that I have to do my groups with my coworker. I never said I wouldn’t. (this was 5 weeks ago) It was her first full week and she was down in the office doing paper work.

Every week my supervisor would email me (so I know he read my emails-ask for a meeting to sit down and get to know each other, what I have done there the last 5.5 years) In his emails he says in list form what I should do. This pissed me off because they are things I do anyways and have been doing all along without anyone telling me. (can you imagine someone telling you to take a shower when you do anyways? That’s how it feels to me.)

Two weeks ago I got to a boiling point.
I went to work on Tuesday. I had wanted to do something for the residents that was promised to them and never delivered on. (no pun intended) We were going to save up our money and order out for pizza. The clients who participated, loved it and thanked me.

I had prepared for my group and my coworker said she had a few things to discuss because she turned it over to me. I sat and listened. Everything she said, I was going to say. When she was done she said, ok, your turn. I said I have nothing more to say, you said everything I was going to say. She said, oh, ok, I guess group is over then. So I got paid on this day to do nothing. I hate that. Later on, as I was leaving actually, somehow either I or her brought up something about a staff meeting. She had told me they had a staff meeting that day. I said what time? she said 3 O’clock. I wondered out loud why I wasn’t invited. She said she didn’t know, maybe it was just a last minute thing. Mean while, when I first came in on this day, I went down stairs as I do every time to see who’s working and to say hi to everyone. My supervisor was down there so I said hi, what’s up-what’s going on? He said “nothing, what’s up with you” when he could have said, I had a staff meeting I am sorry you were not included but here’s what we talked about. NOPE! Nothing.

Every month I get a news letter from the city I work in so I can see if there is anything going on in the city my clients can participate in. I sent it to my supervisor and my coworker. My supervisor wrote back saying “nice, make sure you review this with the residents and post it”

This was it. I was boiled over. This is the 4th week in a row he replied to an email of mine, telling me what to do when I do it anyways. If e would have opened any of the books in the office, he would have seen all the work I have done for the residents. If we had the meeting, like I requested, we would know where each other stands.

Have I mentioned that he’s a Yankee fan and has that Yankee arrogance to him?

I wrote this, and I’ll admit it, aggressive email. Where I basically told him everything. He wrote me back an email, putting me in my place by saying I am just a relief staff, relief staff are not obligated to attend staff meetings and if he had anything to tell me, he would. There was a lot more to it but that was the key things. He offered supervision with me and the new assistance manager. (which, even still, I don’t understand the purpose of having him.) and that was not what I wanted, I wanted a meeting with just me and him but I accepted the meeting but called someone who works above him for support and guidance. Someone who went through all the trials and grief counseling sessions with me when the tragedy happened. She has also worked for the company as long as I have so she knows me.

Thursday I didn’t do anything at work but there was nothing for me to do. The following Tuesday, my coworker came to me when I first walked in and said that I get to run the show. She worked the morning shift and was off the night shift. I said ok, grinning inwardly. We had a nice group, I emailed my notes to my supervisor and my coworker.

I finally heard back from the lady who I emailed. She apologized for not getting back to me sooner. I told her everything. I have a great rapport with her and I feel very comfortable. Her only real response was, he’s new, give him some time. Which, ok, I guess there really isn’t anything she could do.

I had my meeting.

He basically said the same thing the lady said, that he needs time, he has a lot to do. He had no idea, like I thought, that I worked for the company for 9.5 years and for this house for 5 years. He didn’t know what I did. OH, when first sat down, he asked me if I ever had supervision. I said yes, every month I have worked here. He seemed surprised by that. The one thing he did say that made me feel not as ticked off bout him, he said that because he is a very busy person he doesn’t have time to sit and read through and respond to every email. He is very direct. He also said that he is a very relaxed guy. Hmmm maybe too relaxed. He said he wants it to be a family atmosphere for the clients. He said he is a policy driven person. I said that’s good. I don’t know why a supervisor wouldn’t be? But whatever.
I did inform them that I am totally blind. He asked if I can type, “well, I guess you can since you send me emails”. I told him that I cannot use their program on their computer but if people send me forms, I can sit down with clients and fill them out and another staff can just copy it over to their computer.
We parted on good terms but honestly, I still have a bad feeling about this as far as I go.

And now… SPORTS!

I don’t follow hockey much, I did check the final score of each game of the Stanly cup…expect the final game lol. I didn’t realize it was on whatever night it was.

The LA Kings beat the NY Rangers 4 games to 1 and I think 3 of the games went into overtime so it was a very even match. The Kings won it 2 years ago as well. Good for LA.

The NBA final was sorta a different story. The San Antonio spurs beat the Miami Heat’s 4 games to 1 but 3 of the games were absolute blow outs. I think in 3 of them they won by at least 15.
The MVP was a 22 year old who played his heart out. He was awesome. It was the 5th championship for the Spurs in the last 15 years and Tim Dunken was there for all of them.


I have been sadden over the last few weeks by some baseball greats passing away, two of them from my youth and taken way too young.

Don Zimmer was 83 years old. He spent most of his life in the game of baseball, first as a player for the Brooklyn Dodgers, a teammate of Jackie Robinson. He was a coach for the Tampa Bay Rays this year, before his health went downhill. He was the manager for my Redsox for 3 years, 77-79.
He will be missed around the league as he was a kind man who loved the sport and new it from every angle.


Last week, former dodgers then A’s ace, Bob Weltch, passed away at his house of a massive heart attack. He was only 57 years old.
Growing up, my twin was a HUGE Oakland Athletic fan so through him, I was too. He lead the A’s in 1990 with 27 wins on the way to the World Series, where they would lose to the Reds. He was the last pitcher to have 25 or more wins.
Career: 211 wins 146 losses 3.47 ERA


This morning I woke and with my breath caught in my throat as I learned of the passing of San Diego Padre’s hall of famer, Tony Gwynn. He was the best hitter in my lifetime.
He was only 54 years old. Cancer took him way too soon.

He was a student of hitting. He was blessed with above perfect vision and along with his drive, determination and love for the game of baseball, he turned himself into a hall of fame hitter and a very good fielder. He never hit for power, ending his career with only 138 home runs but had 3141 hits in his career with a lifetime batting average of 338, the highest for a player post WWII. He won the batting title 8 times, for the highest average in your league. He also won the Golden Glove award, for the best defensive player at a position, (right field) 5 times. He was also a 15 time All Star.

A story I heard about him today: he would look at videos of pitchers and himself to see how he could improve. The owner at the time, asked him what he was doing. When he told him, the owner went out and bought a $50,000 video system for all his players to use.
These days, they have people to do that job for the players, finding and cutting the videos. He did it himself back then.


Update on love life

I signed up for jdate.com for two reasons. First was because I got a message and in order to read it, I would have to sign up. The other reason was because I need to redirect my focus from Dominique. Realistically, I’m not going to move to Arizona, away from my family and friends and all that I know. I will probably visit her in November for her birthday and again next year so we can go to Disney land and a ball game.
I’ve searched a few hundred profiles and emailed a handful or so. Didn’t get any replies. Even the lady who sent me a “flirt” didn’t reply to my email. A lady did email me and we sent 2 emails to each other but she hasn’t responded to my last one so not sure besides, she and I have almost nothing in common.

I thought of HER 5 separate times on Sunday. Still hurts but staying strong. Although my curiosity has been very high at times, I have NOT looked at her fb.


Ok, this is long enough.
Thank you bloop and thank you bloopers for reading.

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I'm sorry work is sucking I really hope it gets better or you find another job soon.

[Simply*Carlise|0 likes] [|reply]

I live in San Diego and it's been amazing to watch the memorials on Tony Gwen. He was so much a part of the community and continued his legacy through coaching the San Diego State Aztecs. Such a sad loss!

[the best deceptionStar|0 likes] [|reply]

I'm attempting a comment on my phone on here but it's not formatted right so it might be weird. lol Most of this you've told me already though...but I really hope things work out better with your job. And I'm proud of you for not looking at her FB. That's good! It's a good step! Keep doing that! Hopefully the rest will leave you at peace soon too so you can move on.

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