An after work delight *poem

Very flirty I like it!

჻ೋ჻ Yes the counselor at the church broke confidentiality laws by doing that, but she didn't seem to care.

I wish I never bought the vehicle from him. But I got into an accident last year and totaled my car. I didn't have a lot to spend and I didn't think my dad would sell me something that would fall apart. When i was moving in March the door wouldn't close on the drivers side, this happened the evening I was moving. I called him and he said he was out with his girlfriend and too busy to help me, he even yelled at me. I was furious and so hurt. I spent hours driving to and from apartments holding my door shut while I drove. Thankfully I had a friend contact me who's mother had the same thing happen to her and she was able to tell me how to fix it. My father doesn't even deserve to be called that. He's been awful my whole life. I honestly and truly believe the only reason he fought for custody of me as a child was just to spite my mother and take away the thing she loved. I don't think he's ever loved me. I've always been an inconvenience and a burden to him. This is why I want to move to New Jersey next year, my step dad and grandmother are out there and my step dad has always loved me as his own. I want to be around family who will be there for me and for Chloe. She just has me.

Thank you for your kind words, today was awful and kind words were much needed today. ჻ೋ჻

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჻ೋ჻ They are both in the northern part of the state, but Morristown is more north and the place I'd be moving too is more east. No I said next year, I'm in a lease here and couldn't move anywhere before then unfortunately, otherwise I would have moved already.

I've gone my whole life not having a lot of family around or close family relationships, and I'm ok with that to an extent, but now I want to spend some time being around family. And I would really love a fresh start. I don't feel like I can ever truly get one living in the same state. That's good school helped you be more outgoing. I'm always outgoing, and I say what's on my mind around anyone, but I'm not happy. I need to be somewhere I am happy and where being me and doing those things is fun for me again and I enjoy it. ჻ೋ჻

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჻ೋ჻ I don't think it's easier because I am hiding behind a screen, I don't hide anything of myself here at all, computer or not. I plan to meet as many of my Bloop friends as I can! I've only met one though. Not many live in the area I do.

It's funny you said we don't believe the same things because of all the world religions Christianity and Judaism are likely the most similar, although a lot of the Jewish people deny that Christ is the son of God in the flesh, which is the big distinction. But yes, having my daughter in a place where she can learn about God and the Bible and develop her faith is very important. It's not just a house of prayer though, it's a house of teaching and worship and fellowship. I really want her to have some little Christian friends though, kids who parents have similar beliefs. It's so frustrating to constantly be explaining why I don't let my daughter watch or play with stuff with magic and witchcraft.

We eat sweet fruits daily, for me it's things of my younger years that were fun, and the chile candy also reminds me of working with children and the joy I got from that. I think it's because with them I got to be a kid again and actually enjoy having fun like a child. I don't know if you've heard of the High School Musical movies, being that you are an adult and all haha, but I used to watch them with my kids over and over and over again. We used to sing the songs together. That childlike joy I miss. Even being an adult, spending time with kids like that brings it back. It gives you new memories to replace the old ones of your bad childhood.

I'm Italian and family is supposed to be important, but my dad couldn't care less. I honestly wonder if he ever even wanted me. My step dad's side of the family is Italian too, and they value family so much. They are all so close, and it's nice to actually be valued for once. ჻ೋ჻

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