Congratulations L.A. Lakers

჻ೋ჻ If there were a "like" button I would click it! ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Hahaha yes I can see you, and be thankful I am not saying that in a dirty creepy raspy voice "I can seeeee yoooouuu!" hahaha

On Facebook they have a "like" button, I liked your entry about the Lakers winning, but alas Bloop does not have a "like" button. So I sent you the comment with a smiley face instead lol ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Ryc: I guess a lot of girls even now are innocent and just have sex with guys they were involved with. I was nice in a way, because experimenting was fun, but some were bad, and I kind of wish I only had a couple, and then met someone I was crazy about and that was it. Some were fantastic though, I mean wow... but ironically 2 of the most fantastic were guys I was in a relationship with. I also get to know what it feels like for being a woman who's slept with a lot of men, I often get judged for that, even by men. They don't seem to take it well when you've slept with as many or more people than they have. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ As for your other comment, thank you. I do hold a lot of fault with myself because I know how much of a pain I was in my relationships, how much I pushed them away and caused problems just to end it out of fear. But maybe you are right, that a truly caring guy would have kept chasing me no matter what.

I never got counseling or help for what I went through, just read some books and made it through on my own. That's why I wonder if it could be a reason I push guys away when they start to get close and the relationship starts to get more serious. Which is odd because I love the feeling of "playing wife" with someone I care about. It's like two battling sides.

Lately I've had so many bad experiences that I have serious doubts whether there are any decent guys left who aren't already taken or who aren't jaded from their own pasts, or who would even want a girl with such a hard past.

I was a random noter, I saw your post on the Lakers and had to comment. It's interesting that you say my mind and body need to accept a guy, with my last ex it was like my mind and body were rejecting him, I literally could not stand him touching me, I could not sleep with him and I didn't know why. Later on in the relationship he got abusive. But it's amazing how your body can be so intuitive long before the reasons present themselves. I suck at taking things slow, for someone who is so jaded I seem to fall fast and hard with some guys, I put my whole heart into it.

I have a friend who deals with a lot of health problems that most people at 24 don't experience, some even in their entire lives. He has the same problem, women seem to get scared off and it hurts him. I don't, I've stuck by his side and he could have a heart attack and it wouldn't scare me off. I went and bought packets of BC, the powder form of aspirin, just in case he ever does have a heart attack while he's at my place. But women do seem to fear those kinds of things a lot. Online dating sucks, I tried it on several types and got hit on by men in their 50's who just creeped me out! ha ha ha.

Life sucks for not being easy and fair to the nice people. Life should be hard for the bad people. Some of us go through so much crap it would just nice to have the dang fairytale ending for once. I hope you do find your Stephanie one day! What is it about that name that you like so much?

I could describe myself to you so you could "see' me, but it would probably come out sounding like something from a porno. I seem to just exude sex and even when I'm not trying I come off like a phone sex operator ha ha ha ha. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Ryc: Well thanks ha ha I like words and I like for words to describe a picture. Well I definitely could use 1000 words ha ha ha.

Thank you very much.

Ha ha well you can definitely try. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Ha ha ha ha! I just read that poem actually, that is too funny. You really love baseball don't you? My baseball card would show me in pig tails, a baseball jersey tied under my boobs and un-buttoned all the way, short cut off shorts and holding a big bat. Or maybe that would be the pin up calender ha ha ha. That would be fun though!

I am actually reading your entry with the sex survey. The one question and answer that caught my eye was "What does your favorite foreplay include? Sucking on her left nipple. It makes her moan." I am so stealing that survey from you even though it's really old. Hope you don't mind!

If you don't mind me asking, what caused your blindness? I saw that it happened when you were 14.. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Ha ha ha thanks! Instead of business cards I will give out sexy baseball cards instead hehe.

You posted it in 2009, no wonder you don't remember it. I just noticed the sex entry, bad I know ha ha. I am not just reading those though, I promise!

What about getting eye transplants? Since you are Mr. Smarty Pants I am sure that this has already been thought of. Is it even possible?

Well I am not highly as educated as you are in the degree since, but I have wisdom beyond my years through my own intelligence and the life experiences I've had. I should have several degrees hanging on my wall, but right before I graduated was when I was raped and life went down hill from there for a long time. I got pregnant at 21, turned my life around, but have still put off the education and career I wanted so that I could devote as much time as possible to my daughter. I did not want to miss out on her baby years. I am not doing online schooling to get my BS in Business. It's not much, I want to do so much more, but for right now it's something and that's better than not doing anything at all. Hopefully things in my life will get to a better point where I can pursue more of the things I want. I love learning as well, it's amazing to take in new knowledge, and even more amazing is all the many things out there a person could learn.

I am a silent stalker ha ha ha Do you really want my comments on over a year old entries? Plus I don't know a lot about baseball, please try to gasp and let your mouth drop in shock, haha. I'm sure a baseball fanatic such as yourself probably weeps a little every time someone tells you that ha ha. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Well that sucks. Hopefully you can get the hours you need somehow. Is there anyone who can drive you to and from your counseling jobs? No life is not fair, life likes to be unfair as much as possible it seems. So why did you choose your career path? I'm finally in your 2010 entries. Happy New Year! hahaha ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Ah so it's the license not the actually getting to and from, gotcha. Sorry, that seems a little ridiculous. Rules and job descriptions can be changed and even tailored if someone actually gave a crap enough to do so.

You will be happy to know I have commented on a couple of your 2010 entries. I don't remember which ones, but I just left another one regarding the 49ers.

I assume a sexy stalker would sound like a person breathing heavily or moaning ha ha ha ha. Like when you pick up the phone and hear the heaving breathing on the other line. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Well I am not Jewish so I don't have to worry about my burial. Although I don't see a big deal in a burial because it's just a place for a flesh and blood body to decompose and rot. I have several tattoos...I am a Christian though, but my faith doesn't strictly mandate no tattoos.

I did, I got a sexy little shirt, got him a 100% silk tie, reusable tote bags for grocery shopping at such, Christmas ornaments, hair bows for my daughter I can't remember what else. Oh I would normally wear dirty lingerie ha ha ha! I got several of things like that for Christmas, but the two 49ers ones I haven't worn at all. I did wear one of the other ones though, for someone else. Made me feel a bit better about him attacking me and cheating on me with a rather large and ugly woman. I am a very considerate girlfriend/fiance. But it was wasted on a loser. Oh well. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Hm, yeah I think smaller is better but I am biased hahaha. I think it would suck not being able to wrap your arms around your woman. So small all around, meaning no big butt? hahahahaha.

Well enjoy your dinner. It is 4:13pm here. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

I finally go see Bon Jovi tomorrow!!!

i'm sooooooooo not into sports....

჻ೋ჻ You could ask women of each size to let you feel them so you can see what each cup size feels like ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

჻ೋ჻ Just so you know though, it's going to be extremely explicit with lots of details and stories of things I did. I just don't want to freak you out or offend you at all. ჻ೋ჻

Ashalicious

lol I don't follow basketball at all, congrats to them!

RYN(it's tara im my writing diary) Well pleasure reading && not required crap.
I know lot of people who hate to read too.
It's mostly fiction accpet for two (reading and haven't read yet) is non fiction.

I am not a fan of NBA basketball (I like college basketball better) But glad the better team won.