first... thank you bloop for being here for giving me a place to write.
Everyone remembers that lady I went out with way back in January, right?
Jewish, fun, caring, pre school teacher?
We had went out for dinner then to the movies. We saw some chick flick that was pretty sexual.
Her name is Leigh. As my mom saw in my face and I admitted, she reminds me so much of my first love, Lisa, that the feeling I had for Lisa, I felt for Leigh. I was flying high.
The next day I emailed her and told her I had a great time. She said she had a nice time but that she didnt want to go out again. My heart was shattered. She had said that she is looking for butterflies and I knew what she meant because I felt those butterflies, for her.
We had randomly im each other on okcupid when we were on at the same time, just to see how each was doing. All the while, holding my feelings down.
While looking for my ms right, she had im me today. She just asked how I was doing.
L: Hi there. How have u been? Hows life treating u?
J: HI! umm alright. not much has changed.
J: I'm on fb now lol
L: Oh cool....find me... leigh*last name* . I'm addicted
J: you rally want me to add you?
L: Why not
L: Unless u don't want then that's cool
L: I know I disappeared...a lot was going on and I've made some changes. Ill be a better fruend
J: I know that we only went on one date. but I thought you were awesome. you are fun, caring, understanding, smart, talkative, cute and...Jewish. I'm still
puzzled how you have not found mr right
L: I think I can be feisty and stubborn....
J: but that is what makes you part of you. *smile*
L: Thanks....
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so she had found me and I added her. I looked at her profile... omg! lol I so want to take this lady home with me and cuddle, watch movies, hang out with her and her friends at karioki bars and other fun places they go.
same music, simular movies, did I mention she's Jewish? lol
She is talkative, which I need since I'm quiet.
in my little fantasy I'm having right now, we would hang out and she would find the butterflies I have for her, she would find in me.... and we would live happily ever after....
then I woke up, reality, she doesnt want me and I just have to accept that I will never find a lady who "likes me for me!"
but a lot of you on here found your special partner this year and so many others I've known have too, including 5 people who got engaged the last few months.
ok, I am going to go sulk in my loneliness now |
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cheer up, dude. 
