the tears still hurt

01/18/2013

This...is going to be a dificult couple of days.
The tears already started.

my mom sent me an article this morning about a comunity college that setup a scholarship in Stephanie's name. I read the first paragraph and a half of the article because I couldnt read any more. The tears ...the tears were flowing down my face.
This is so dificult.
I feel so alone.

For anyone who doesnt know-remember what I am talking about...
on 1-20-11 Stephanie Moulton, a coworker of mine was murdered at work by a client. if you google her name, You can read the details of what happened or if you go back in my diary you can read from my view.

While the rest of the country is watching football on sunday and listening to the president, my thoughts will be on that horific Thursday afternoon.

may someday this day come without pain but with a smile of her memory...but this is not the day, this is not the year.

this...bon jovi song use to be just another song that had little meaning to me...now it pains me to listen to it but when I do, ...

"August 7, 4:15"


[This song is dedicated to the memory of Katherine Korzilius.]
[Sometimes God calls His angels ... too soon.]

Ah...
It was another day
Perfect Texas afternoon
Mother and two children play
The way they always do
As they raced home from the mailbox
A mother and her son
Against a little girl of six years old
The independent one

Ah...
The deputies went door to door through all the neighborhood
They said I got some news to tell you folks
I'm afraid it ain't so good
Somehow something happened
Someone got away
Someone got the answers for what happened here today
Oh no, oh no, oh no no no no

Tell me it was just a dream - August 7, 4:15
God closed His eyes and the world got mean - August 7, 4:15

Now the people from the papers
And the local TV news tried to find the reason
Cop dogs sniffed around for clues
Someone shouted "Hit and run"
The coroner cried "Foul"
Her blue dress was what she wore
The day they laid her body down
Oh no, oh no, oh no no no no

Tell me it was just a dream - August 7, 4:15
God closed His eyes and the world got mean - August 7, 4:15
No...

[Guitar solo]

I know tonight that there's an angel up on Heaven's highest hill
And no one there can hurt you baby, no one ever will
Somewhere someone's conscience is like a burning bed
The flames are all around you
How you gonna sleep again ?
Oh no, oh no, oh no no no no

Tell me it was just a dream - August 7, 4:15
God closed His eyes and the world got mean - August 7, 4:15

Tell me it was just a dream - August 7, 4:15
God closed His eyes and the world got mean - August 7, 4:15
[ 4:15 to fade ]