idk what i'm supposed to do when i need her and she's not around
i fucking
fucking
fucking
HATE
this long distance bullshit, because it's late over there so she's in bed, and i have no way of getting a hold of her and i feel so stupid and dumb and i just want her here right NOW and i can't have it and nothing else is going to work.
i emailed her but i sound dumb and needy and this is why people shouldn't fall in love with me because i'm just a brat and i just need and take and want and i'm dumb.
i hate time zones, i fucking hate oceans and phones that don't work internationally and stupid people and stupid everything.
i feel so dumb and stupid and i dont' know what to do. i keep trying to log off and not be online but then i get back on because i feel so lonely and idk who to talk to. i called my mom's house and nobody really had time to talk and i just.
feel stupid.
i need her, idk why or even what she could give me but idk what to DO with myself |