#10 - Low

I found myself hitting an all time low today. I gave Big advice on how to not get caught cheating. Big thinks that he is slick and he swears that somebody ratted him out every single time he got caught! No baby, that’s not what happened. You told on yourself. The reality is that he gave himself away every single time. Like, texting. You don’t text your boys that much. So when you’re text, text, texting away … I know that you’re texting some girl. And when you put nick names in the phone. Um duh! And the way you talk to a female compared to the way that you talk to a male … YOU giver yourself away every time. And I know that it is wrong to condone cheating especially after what happened to me but its just a reality. People, humans, us, we are not designed to be monogamous. Whatever Clearly I am around others that share that same view therefore we do what we do. On the other hand there are people in this world who believe in fighting that urge to remain faithful to the one that they love and more power to them. Really, more power to them. Of course I read the fairy tales and at first I believed in them but as I grew up I realized that it is a mother fucking crock of shit. The thing is that I was hurt bad. And fuck you if you feel like you should tell me that you think I’m not over him because clearly I’m NOT. And so yes, I am still hurt. And yes, my heart still aches because I love him and I can’t be with him. And not because of his girlfriend but because of the way we would hurt each other. He cannot be faithful and to be honest, as much as it really does pain me to say this, I just don’t think I would be able to be with just him. So whatever, its fine. The point is that I gave him some advice.

1. Do not store my number in your phone under my name, especially if she is suspicious of us. The thing is, if you’re going to text me all of the time you either need to not have my number saved under a name or you need to give me someone else’s name. She is so worried about us hooking up, she will figure it out and then what? You’re really going to say goodbye to me for a bitch that you barely even know? I tried my damnist to be the best girlfriend I could fucking possibly be and still you couldn’t cut bitches off so I know you won’t do it for a bitch you hardly even know
2. Delete the evidence. If we’re talking to each other in an inappropriate manner, you need to delete that shit. Better yet, delete the entire conversation. There is no reason for her to know that we talk. Letting her know that we talk will cause nothing but curiosity and you know what? It would just be bad. Oh, you’re just friends then? Ok well I want to meet your friend. And if the girl you fucking around with is anything like me, she’ll be aroused by the idea that she is in the same room with you and girlfriend.
3. Don’t leave your phone out. You know as well as I do how easy it is to figure out someone’s lock code on their phone. If you for some dumbass reason forgot to delete your previous text messages … well then you’re fucked.
4. Don’t text late at night – lonely bitches text mother fuckers late at night. If you’re laying next to me and you’re texting … you’re texting a bitch so fuck you. Caught … red handed … give me your phone and get the fuck out.
5. Don’t catch feelings – the second you feel something for the bitch you’re fucking is the second that you lose all focus of your lies and when that happens, you get caught up. You want to use your boy as an excuse to see me … you better tell your boy that if he talks to your girl to follow along with your lie because otherwise, regardless of what he says, you’re fucked.