If you've read my past diary entries, you probably know my dark secret fantasy of different ways to die. This is a secret I only reveal here on Bloop alone. As I've mentioned in my past entries, I am not suicidal and I don't believe I have the right to take my own life. However, my mind continues to wander to that place where I contemplate about the most painless or even blissful way to go.
A few days ago, I remembered that one of my previous jobs actually provided me the knowledge about a completely painless way to go. (I used to be a research assistant for professors, one of those years was at a medical school.) I can't believe the answer was in my brain all along, long forgotten. Hmmmm, did God give me that experience back then for a reason? "Things that make you go - hmmmmmm."
Again, I don't believe I have the right to take my own life. But I just can't help but contemplate about my death.
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