This entry is just writing therapy for myself.
There's a girl Shackeema who is able to help me with my work. She looks like a model and is comfortable appearing in front of the camera. She would be great for my video lessons and video blogs. However, the problem is this. We are apparently attracted to each other, and that's a problem. I can't get into this type of complication in my life right now. Also, she's a student at the college (at my side job) which is also another reason why this could be dangerous. But she is the perfect candidate for my video lessons and video blogs, and I think she would say yes too.
I'm hesitant, because of the danger of getting myself into a potential mess. So, I will think about this some more.
Second thought in my mind right now is that my side job at the college. After I switched departments to the another program this semester, it was hell (to some extent) in the first month because I have way more experience and knowledge of the material for the two exams (that the students have to pass at the end) than my lead supervisor.
It was the worst in the first month because he didn't know how much I know. As he's gotten to know me, he's realizing more and more the extent of my knowledge and experience. But compare to people in the other department, he's way more resistant to what I know and it's frustrating too because his lack of experience may be keeping the students from passing
Today, however, he seems to have gone back to the treatment he gave me in the first month. This may just be a reminder from God that this is only a side job. God is reminding me to make sure I am putting primary focus on my main work.
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