All i want is an effort. Thats it. Why is that so hard? Last night, hubby got home a good 45mins before i did. Well he let the dog run the house. Normally no problem. Normally. He didnt let her out or nothing. She got into the garbage can in the bathroom. Had tp all over the hall. Shredded. He didnt know until his brother told him. When i got home. He was playing ac4. He let her out after i got home. Only when i got oto him about her. And he only let her out long enough to pee. I wake up to a pile of shit at my bedroom door. I clean it up, go to the bathroom to brush my hair, and find another pile of shit at the door. I let her out after cleaning that up foo, and i leave for work. I come home to find him on the game again, with her pinned under his legs. Apparently she shit while he was here too. He doesnt let her out like she needs, and hes always on the game or talking to his friend. Makes no effort to be with me whatsoever, and its really getting annoying. Im starting to feel like hes either cheating on me or secretly gay, but then i realize he doesnt really do much but games and i guess the idea of cock turns him off. So what else is there?he doesnt care about me anymore. I already know this. But i made a commitment the least i could do is stick it out. But i find myself wanting to wander and thats not good. I was never very good with self control in that area. Lord knows ive tried but ive failed once or twice. Ive had a moment where looking at another persons pics turns me on. And i fuck him thinking about them. Its not healthy i know, but what can i do? I am weak, and i crave attention i obviously cant get at home no matter how hard i try. Ive spoken with another who is able to give me that mental state that i need so bad. But i cannot shirk my responsibilities here. I will not be responsible for this failure when i try my hardest to succeed......... |
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