*heavy sigh* so tonite is kinda blah for me. yesterday was nice. hubby and i went to dinner and a late night movie to celebrate the holiday. well, he had to go back to work tonite. which sucks. cuz we had so much fun yesterday. it seems like i only get to see him two days a week. from monday to friday when he gets home from work he usually sleeps until i go to work. then when i get off work i get maybe ten minutes with him until he leaves. i know i probably sound selfish and petty but i miss my man. i wish i had more time with him throughout the week cuz honestly a few hours on the weekend is not enough for me. i know he has to work and everything, but he is going to be leaving for basic as soon as he gets his mouth fixed. i want to make the most of our time together before he leaves me for the us military. i want to cry most of the time, but i don't want him to see me do it because i know how much this whole military thing means to him. tbh i kinda miss the times when he had a part time job. we had more time together. we only share the same bed for a few hours in the morning until i get up and start moving around. it sucks. it's really wearing down my attitude. i'm usually so upbeat and positive, but lately i've been so depressed and pessimistic. granted, it could be worse but this still sucks. one week. that's all i want. one full week with him with no distractions like work or anything before he goes off to basic for three months if not more, but i know that will never happen. not unless we both lose our jobs. until then i guess i will just have to settle with sleeping on wet pillows. |
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