i am only human after all....

08/10/2014

i am me. every day i struggle. i struggle with pain. i struggle with depression. i struggle with self-harm. i struggle with suicide. i struggle with anger. i struggle with doubt. i struggle with everything. every day. every minute, every second, every moment of my life. i have thoughts in my head that would send anyone else to the loony bin lol. hell maybe i need to be there. but i do. i am human. i struggle every day. my battles aren't the same as yours, they never will be. but i struggle just like the rest of you. i deserve to be treated like a decent human being just like everyone else on this planet. i do nothing intentionally to hurt anyone else, and i love with all my heart or i don't love at all. i try to be a good person, but i have my shortcomings. just like everyone else. yet i still smile. no it's not real but no one else knows that. i've learned to fake it so good my own husband doesn't even know what's real and what's fake. i can't answer questions i don't know the answers to. that is all.....