so this past week, we got paid. and bills were due. no surprise there. bills are always due throughout the month. well, the thing is, hubby only made about $100 this check (he gets paid weekly, not bi-weekly), so i had to cover all of his part of the bills. normally his mom and i had split the bills in 1/2 so it was easier on us. but this time, since he has a job not, regardless of what he's making, the bills are split 3 ways. understandable, but he's only making no more than $150 a check. well his part of this set fell on me. i had to cover it all. she wouldn't go 1/2 this time like we have been, she left me to pay it all. i had to pay 2/3 of the bills while she got away with only paying 1/3. i gave that woman almost $600 this check, and she only had to pay less than $300. i didn't even break $700 this check. so i had less than $100 left after it all, and i still had to take my dog to the vet yesterday. ( i was about $20 short so they took off the dr. exam and dropped it within my price range. i love this vet.) and THEN, we went to a loan place, and she got approved for a loan for $500!! i understand she is taking a trip to missouri in a week, but still. dammit we got a lot going on right now and we could use a fucking break too. she complains about how no one but her is buying food for that house, but it's kinda hard to buy food when you have no money. she knew he would only make $100 this check, and she still didn't help out any. i make $300 less than her per check, and she expected me to pay for everything?? i can deal with it just being the two of us, and i have to cover for him when we get our own place, but right now, there is another person in the situation who could have helped, but didn't. because she wants to have enough money to have spending money when she gets down to missouri.she has more than enough, and had more than enough before. i am tired of being used by other people so they can get ahead. i am 24 for crying out loud, don't i deserve a break too? i've been dealing with this shit all my life, and i was promised this would be different. that she would never use me like that. well, she has. and she probably will again. it's frustrating and depressing and i don't wanna be here anymore. i just want a break every now and then. i understand people have hard lives, but don't use me as a cushion for you when you don't want to deal with it anymore. i'm trying just to get on my feet and stand. but i keep getting knocked back down...... |
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