Why? If you don't want me here, if you really want me gone that bad, why fucking tell me you love me? You honestly think I am that fucking stupid? At least my family made it somewhat convincing at first. Not you. You don't care. Why play me like this, play with my heart, and expect me not to notice? How can you expect me to be okay with this?? All I have to do is give my sister the word and they could have a bus ticket for me back home. But you don't know that....Not yet. I won't give you something else to throw up in my face. We are both miserable. Why even bother with this charade. It's clear now that you hate me. Otherwise you wouldn't do this.....I told you that you would turn on me too.....everyone does......I'm sorry. The only thing stopping me from leaving is the fact that I promised till death. What if I have to break that promise? I am only as good as my word you know.maybe I need to though.....I was actually afraid of you. When you blew up over the headphones you broke.....I can't live like that. |