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In The Secret Garden
by Ivy Divine

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03/05/2015






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~♥ Today I'm Thankful For...     The ability to keep a positive attitude in the midst of immaturity.




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      I have a bunch of friends with different personality types. However I have one who thinks she knows all and is the smartest person on Earth. She does no wrong, knows no wrong, and flips out if you contradict that. I honestly thought she had grown up a little bit but clearly she hasn't. She made a comment I thought was rude when I opened up to her about how I'd been feeling over dating. The point was that I haven't dated in over a year. Nor did I let myself feel anything for guys. So the last 2 weeks I've not only dated but also opened up some feelings that haven't been opened in a year. I turned to her because I valued her as a friend and valued her opinion. Her comment I felt disparaged my feelings and made it seem as though there is something wrong with them. I tried to explain that and she went off on me and accused me of attacking her when I was simply stating how I felt very calmly. I tried messaging her again yesterday keeping it as non threatening and peaceful as possible but she has yet to respond. In the mean time, she is posting passive aggressive posts on FB. That is the height of immaturity! And yet she sees herself as this amazingly mature and advanced person....



      So I'm reminded why I come here to write. Because sweet gracious I do not need to be flipped out on and get attacked passively aggressively on FB over a small disagreement that should have been worked out easily. I honestly had no clue she would flip out like that. She takes things to the extreme though and gets angry very easily. I've learned my lesson, I won't talk to her about anything personal again, nor will I open up to her again. It's disappointing because she could be a good confidant but she chooses to speak without thinking about how someone else who's in a vulnerable state might take it, and then she flips out if you don't agree with her. At this point I'm just keeping most of my feelings to myself. And yes, I know that's not healthy, but what can I do? This dating stuff is complicated and so are the emotions involved. I haven't done this in over a year so there is a lot to process and adjust to. I just want to handle it as successfully as possible and make it through this alive! (o.O)



      I plan to start applying for jobs as a waitress in a bar soon. I need to make more money and I can do that with that kind of job. I need something fun too. And if I work nights I don't miss out on much time with my kiddo. So I'm going to apply where I can and work it around my childcare business. I like watching kids but I need more income. Doing resale and the business I started with my kiddo helps too, but we need real money so we can get a place in the mountains like we want. That's our goal for 2015 - to save up enough for a small place in the mountains right outside of town. We hate living in town. I have several friends in the mountains and we love the atmosphere up there! It's so peaceful and quiet and beautiful! We have made that I must happen goal for this year. So I'm doing everything I can to make it happen!



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I really dislike people like that and I'm glad I don't have anyone like that in my life. Everyone is pretty upfront & have flaws.

Yay for meeting guys. It's always nice to have some fun "wink wink"

[fearless♥love|0 likes] [|reply]

oooooh I try to steer clear from those type of people. Yay for meeting a new fella.

[Ethan JamesStar|0 likes] [|reply]

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