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In The Secret Garden
by Ivy Divine

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>.< Renaissance Faire, Birthday Party & Meeting Friends

05/04/2015






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~♥ Today I'm Thankful For...     A fun filled weekend.




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      We are at the end of another weekend. Friday evening we went over to the Boyfriend's place and we cooked dinner together. It was really domestic and nice. We all ate together before taking my munchkin to a friend's to be babysat. We seem to space it out where we get a sitter for her for a night every other weekend or so. My friend, the same one some of you will remember from MANY years ago - I called her J, gave me some lip about babysitting. I told her we were eating as a family and would take my kiddo over later. She asked me to bring a couple pizzas for the kids to munch on later so I got a 4 pack of kids sized pizzas. Then she tells me, "Oh I meant big ones in case my brother and dad wanted some." Uh, what?? I'm not feeding your whole family because 1- They aren't babysitting, and 2- My daughter won't even be there for dinner. Normally I take food if she'll be eating with the sitter. J had already made several smart ass comments like, "Wow overnight? I better be getting booze for that lol" Which I thought was very rude. Most of my friends don't ask for anything when I babysit. I take food when Chloe will be eating there and will do something else too, but they never ask. I told her I got her vodka, 2 energy drinks, a 4 pack of pizzas, AND we were taking her some of the food we were making too. I felt she was being very demanding. Boyfriend totally agreed with me. Oh, and that's not including the other stuff I had for her that I was giving her.



      I asked the Boyfriend if he'd want to drop Chloe off with me and meet her and he said yes. I asked J and she said that was fine. It was a little nerve wracking for me because she can be judgmental and protective. But it went well and she was polite. He said he saw her eyeballing him good when he asked my daughter for a hug before we left. Keep in mind, this kid is crazy about him and it's not a big deal for us. I guess she is just being protective. I told the Boyfriend I didn't care what she thought because I'm happy, but that it was a big deal because I haven't ever introduced her to a boyfriend before. That evening we watched World War Z and had some drinks. I also got another fabulous spanking - this time with his hand, a wooden spoon, a metal ruler, and a belt! It was awesome! Definitely less marking and soreness than last time. I kind of miss both actually. It was fun discovering the different types of pain that you feel with different instruments. We had some fabulous sex as well and then headed to be at like 3am.



      Saturday morning I was up around 8 so I could get ready and head home to take care of our animals. I'm having to make a trip up in the morning and again in the evening to feed them and take the dog out. It's quite a pain and I need to find a better solution so I can use less gas. He lives across town from me, a 15-20 minute drive each way. :/ After that I picked my little one up and we went back to the Boyfriend's place to make breakfast together. After that we went to a local Renaissance Faire and had a great time! My daughter was a princess, I was a maiden, and my Boyfriend was a pirate. I guess we looked really great because we had strangers asking to take pictures of us. It was very flattering! We watched an awesome jousting match and had a lot of fun! Then my kiddo got to fight a knight and she stabbed him and beheaded him! Hahaha the kids were using foam swords to play fight the knights. The look on her face of pure joy was awesome! We saw bagpipers and tons of awesome costumes too. We left when the weather started getting super windy and began to rain.



      We headed back to his place again to change and eat before heading to a birthday party for my friend's son. This was the 2nd friend of mine he'd be meeting in one weekend. The party was much more enjoyable than the one for her daughter because I had someone there with me. Last time I was alone and didn't know many people there so I didn't enjoy it as much. And last time as the night went on we all started drinking a lot more and my friend was trying to push one of her guy family members on me... This time my guy limited me at 2 drinks which was nice, and we didn't stay as long. My daughter got to play, do the pinata and have cake, so she was happy. After that we went back to his place and watched The Emperor's Groove because he hadn't seen it before and we think it's hilarious! No touchy, NO touchy! We stayed the night again and then we headed home this morning because I had a kiddo to watch all day.



      I really enjoy spending the weekends with him like that and I know my kiddo does too because she never wants to leave and always asks when we can go back. He's really good for both of us. Things are progressing nicely. We disagree on stuff sometimes but we are both committed to making the relationship work. We both want to be with each other. We had a small disagreement last night after we had been drinking and the little one was asleep. I went outside to get her blanket and he followed me out. I made a comment about him coming out with me and he said it was because he cares about me. I said something like, "Oh I know how much you do." Well he didn't hear it and kept asking me to repeat it, but I wouldn't because I just didn't want to open that door. That could lead to us discussing how much we care about each other and using words that start with L. So we argued about that and I told him this morning that I wasn't trying to keep what I said from him, that I simply didn't want to go there. He said, "Did you say that I did it because I love you?" And I said, "No that is not what I said! I just said I knew how much you cared about me." Thankfully my daughter came in and interrupted that convo.



      I'm not stupid, I can tell when a person feels that way for you. Things they say and do give those signs away. I'm just not ready for that yet. I honestly have very strong feelings for him as well, but I want it to be a good moment when it's said to each other. And I don't want it to be after a fight or when we've been drinking. I want it to be because he looks at me and in that moment he wants to tell me that he feels that way about me. I know it's coming, I don't know when it will be, especially since I told him a while ago that men often tell me they love me after a few days. He made a comment about not wanting to be like them. But when you love someone and haven't told them yet, it bubbles up inside you and you think about it a lot until you do say it. I've known for a bit now how I feel about him but I won't say anything until he says it first. That's just how I want this to be. He's the leader in our relationship, he needs to do those things like he decided we were in a relationship. I want him to be the one who does that. I also don't want us to rush it either. We've been together 2 weeks and known each other for a month and a half. For us it feels like 2 years though, it's just that comfortable and right with us. But I still want us to take our time with some things so they truly come from a place of knowing for sure how we feel and not reacting from that initial relationship excitement.



      There is no right or wrong way to do things in a relationship. Every relationship and every couple is different. They need to do things in the way that works for them. If anyone tells you there is a right or wrong way they are completely incorrect! So I am trying hard not to have that "I have to do things right" mindset because it really is about just going with the flow and taking things as they come. I don't want to hold back because it's been a short time or let anyone's comments give me doubts. I just want to focus on what's best for us and do that. We are seeing him again Wednesday evening. We'll probably make dinner again or go out to McDonald's again. Yes their food is unhealthy but they are doing My Little Pony toys in the kids meals and the two of them are Pony Crazy! Hahaha So he's been taking us weekly so he can get my daughter the ponies. It's things like that, small and simple gestures that are so meaningful, that are why I care about him and want to be with him. He is really great for both of us.



      I need to work on my place this week to get stuff we don't need sold and get it ready so we can try having him over. He's allergic to cats so I'm not sure how it will work. And the kids have trashed it so I don't want him seeing it like this. My goal is to have it done by Friday at the latest. This coming weekend he's taking us to the lake on Saturday so we can hike and fish. I'm working Sunday which is Mother's Day, so we are celebrating Saturday instead. We are both super excited because my kiddo has never fished before and I haven't fished in many years. We are looking forward to it a lot! Yet another weekend of family stuff with the 3 of us. I'm telling you, it all fits just right. I can't describe it or explain it, it just does.



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Wow, really? Your friend sounds very demanding. I wouldn't expect any of my friends to bring me things for watching their kids....I mean, food is always good since you might not know what the kids like, but I still wouldn't expect it. =/
Yeesh.

Your boyfriend sounds amazing and I'm glad things are going well for you guys. I'm glad your daughter likes him too - that makes things so much easier, I'm sure. <3 Of course you will have ups and downs, but when you work through them, you'll both be a lot stronger in the relationship.

The Ren Faire sounds awesome!! I haven't really been to one...my high school had one when I was a junior and it was quite fun, but I'd love to go to another one.

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