Since I found out i was pregnant, I have been full of questions, worries, joy, and even suspense. I suppose that is what all mothers go through. The fact that my life hasn't been one of health, makes it even harder for me to just lose it with happiness over the fact that God has given me a gift like this. I'm scared that I won't be suitable, excited that I have the chance, wondering if I will be any good, and oh so joyfull that I don't have to wait.
Expecting, that things will go fine, my baby will be born healthy with all fingers and toes, and that my parents and husband will be there to see it's tiny face. With everything that has happened, I am terrified that I might not be able to do that for my child. What if I get sick or something happens and I screw up my job? God has a plan and I know I shouldn't worry, but I do.
God, give me the strength to carry this burden. Please give me peace and understanding as I move through this journey. Thank you for hearing me and taking the time to give me this child. |