As a woman and a Christian, I am and have always been strong willed and very outspoken. If you have read some past blogs you will see that I have many opinions and thoughts on subjects and life. Many times, I feel as though my words go right into the air and have no effect on anyone.
I have not been on the blog site in quite some time, due to issues related to pregnancy and computer malfunctution. What I want to post today is something that has more meaning to me than most topics we can discuss in a forum like this. For many reasons, my family and I have dealt with some issues that constantly have us questioning ourselves and the predicament we find ourselves in.
In today’s world, we see that things are out of control. Some people would say that it has always been such and there have been times just like these. I would contest that thought with some backing stories and news articles but more than that the very clear MORAL decline of civilization. We could debate, talk about speculation, and bring many many aspects into the equation, in the end, the result is the same no matter how it came about. MORAL depravity has over taken our world in a way unlike ever before. This is why so many of us face these horrible battles with in ourselves, family, and friends. We look at the war around the world but we need to start looking towards the war within our own lives.
My family has dealt with such a war for many years now. The same old issue, in the same old person. Each time is significant, in reference to how it is brought on and dealt with, to us because we have to try and figure out how we confront the problem to deal with it. Without going into all the exhaustive details of the situation, I will tell you all this. 7 years ago my sister went wayward, in that time, we have tried to encourage her in ways to get her life in order. We have began processes that would help to set her right, been heart broken, lied to, and unfortunately lost most hope for her salvation. Rom 1:24
We have had to let her go but also let my niece go as well. We have no strength and it feels as though this is a useless battle. As we fight, we also have to remember the battle isn’t over who will win my sisters soul, but it is the battle over Jesus and Satan. Eph. 4-6 talks about the battle we fight. That the battle is not about us but that Satan wants only to prove we are not worthy. God knows we are all not worthy and still takes us in.
Many times, during our reach for my sister, we find ourselves struggling to understand, struggling for some peace of mind during these times, while others we find ourselves angry and beaten down. The latest episode has done all of these things to us and only within a months time. I suppose the constant reminder that we need to depend on God, and see him as our hope during this time, has made it ever so humbling to deal with things. However, this last issue brought another worldly aspect into light that we had never before dealt with. In times past, despite the ever weary concern for the consequences that would take place because of my sisters rebellion, we had never been concerned with my nieces well being. That is not to say we did not see the danger lurking in the shadows. We recognized that the consequences of my sister’s decisions would ultimately harm her child. However, the danger was never in a physical sense or in a way that could not be resolved and fixed.
In this case, my sister finds herself in a relationship with a guy who is not only in another country but is also a practicing Muslim. (This is where I know some of you will disagree) I will not say all Muslims are dangerous, I don’t believe they are. What I do know is that the Qur’an is dangerous and if they are true Muslims then what is in that book is very dangerous. Especially to those who are not of that particular religion. I will not debate this topic nor, do I have any reason to. I just know from my studies what it has to say.
It was not just that this guy is a Muslim, no it is bigger than that. My sister wants/wanted to leave this country to meet this guy in Africa…. Amazingly, enough she believes whole heartedly that they are in love and that the relationship could take the next step. Here in lies the problem, my sister has nothing but a selfish nature and because of that she would take my niece and go. No looking back until it was to late. What she thinks is that this guy will supply her needs and daughters needs and they wont have any reason to worry about if they ever had to come back. Quite larger than that is the issue of her never being out of the country and not understanding the place to which she wishes to go.
For most of us, we would plan. Get a history of where we are headed, get to know the culture, the land, and as much information as we can. Why? To prepare! My sister does not prepare, she does what she feels, without any thought to the people around her.
This brings us up to date with why the horrible choice we, my family and I, have had to try to make. What is our next step, not to help my sister, but to help my niece. Where do we go from here to make sure that the little girl, we love, is not in harms way because of reckless choices made? I have dealt with Child Protective Services many times, and each time it seems more and more of these people could care less about the child. We have seen children who are in terrible situations, left there because ‘The parents/parents are doing the best they can’. The best they can is sometimes the wrong thing. We all try to do the best we can, non of us are perfect. However, when you continue to do the exact same thing and continue to just live in a way that is not fitting a child, how can you say ‘they are doing the best they can?’
As a outsider and a soon to be mom, my hope is that I never do just that. I never do just ‘the best I can’. My prayer is that I will be a lioness for my child, a lioness fights without thought to herself, she will protect her cub with her life. She is a fighter and does not stand back and let things happen, she takes control or at least tries. My sister, is not a fighter, she fights anyone who makes her see the reality but she really doesn’t fight for her daughter. My niece is almost 3 years old and has lived in about 8 different homes. My niece never has had a stable environment, due to parents issues, lack of food, clothing, money, and direction. The state says, “She’s doing the best she can” and doesn’t bother to think, maybe there is another solution to helping my niece.
My parents, the grandparents, have lavished as much time, money, and heart into trying to help them. Now with the recent change, a decision had to be made. This decision was difficult and I am still trying to understand what it fully means. Some parents should not be parents. Most of us can agree on that, not always because they are beating their kids, or because they just don’t care but because they just cant or wont take the responsibility in parenting. For my sister, it is this, she wants to be called a mother but because of her immaturity she literally cant do the job. That is hard to say, because she, in her way, truly believes she can and wants to.
Currently, we are taking steps to see what to do. It is a struggle to decide what step is the right one, and where we fall if we step this way or that. The dilemma comes in many forms. One, as I stated before, the state doesn’t see the issue, despite 3 years of no change in the household and the mental capacity. Two, proceeding means taking a stance against my sister, which we don’t want to do but we have to protect my niece. Three, doing what’s right, because what we feel is not always what is right. We need to remember to think and not just act. That is the hardest thing, we feel like this direction is the right one but without thinking it through we have missed the tree blocking the pathway. We need to always be praying and asking for guidance and THINKING!
With the world in shambles, the moral depravity of society, and the over powering me me me me civilization, we must always rely on God. My world is fading quickly, my time here is short, but in the end, my God is here and he is not backing down. So the fight must go on. |
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