I live in a constant state of fatigue and pain in my muscles and joints which until recently I had no idea what was going on with me. I literally will sink in to anxiety from the exhaustion. It does not matter if I sleep for one hour or for 10 I wake up feeling like I have not slept at all. I hurt every where. My knees and joints and even my finger bones seem to hurt. My back and neck spasms and I get tingling in my hands and feet. The bottom line is that for the past 2 years I have suffered daily from pain. I do not want to die. I just do not want to live in pain like this. I wish that I could go back and change what I have done. Change the course of my life. Change me. I miss home. I miss having a home. I am homesick. I was loved once. I was warm. I was loved. You do not understand the significance of being me..And knowing what I have lost..And the worst part about all of this is that I know..I know..That is my circumstances would change then my life would change. But I do not have the resources any more to help myself to get better. To go home. To be more than what I am right now.
WE need help. I am literally dying. And she is very sick herself. We lost our house and car, and have no place to go, and no money at all literally. Too sick to work and getting SSI and help like that will take longer than asking for help to get ourselves stabalized enough to make those things happen.
BUT I WILL NOT GIVE UP. AND during all of this. my best friend, she has taken care of me and is sick with this herself. We have tested this theory, and together we are stronger, and not as sick. Apart we just get worse. I do not know what to do, will you please help us and pray for us? God bless you. Thank you. |
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