So she told me to call her. I did. We actually communicated and talked for the first time in a month or more. She's like the air to my soul and I was suffocating and now I can breathe again.
She said goodbye. She doesn't want ppl to have to deal with her open and closedness.
But before we got off of the phone..I told her how much she means to me. And that if she ever changes her mind, and decides that she needs somebody..I'll always be here. That will never change.
Then like we used to we just sat there, neither of us saying goodbye..For a split second it was just like it used to be..And finally I said bye Kris. And she said bye Trish.
I..Feel like I've just been shot in the gut. I love her oh so very much. I wanted to marry her, I wanted to have her children. And..I never told her that.
But hopefully she'll come back. We are so perfect for each other. Random strangers realize that lol. Idk.
Just sad.
She'll come back. She has to.
She can't run away forever from the real thing. I hope.
"Loving someone is setting them free, letting them go." ''If you love something, set it free; if it comes back it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was.'' |