My God..I'm Leaving..

02/18/2009

I hate myself. Soo much.

So much has happened.

I can't..I've overestimated my strength.

Svetlana..Has left me.

Forever.

Left me..

Alone.

If you actually go through MY entries in this journal you'll see why that is so devastating to me.

First Casey.

Then Lauren..

Now Svetty.

I can't take it anymore.

Svet was the girl of my dreams.

And, I guess that I was the girl of her nightmares because after meeting her in person not only did she get drunk and hit me multiple times but she stressed me out so bad and made me want to die so many times whilst i was there with her.

AND NOW SHE WONT TALK TO ME.

For no reason.

At all.

Well. She will be forced to look me in the eyes and tell me that she doesn't love me.

Because, I am going back.

I am going back.

And, I don't care what I have to do to get her alone with me, but, I will make her look me in the eyes and tell me that she does not love me.

I'll fake it..All of it. The anger. The rage. I'll give her a taste of her own medicine if that is what will keep her with me.

She wants to be hit.

Mistress..I used to be called that.

And, then I became a slave to love.

I guess that it is time to let Aria out again, mm.

Watch out bitch, you're achilies heel is coming back to town.

And, this time.

I win.

Not you.

See you soon, baby.



Good god, you're comin up with reasons.
Good god, you're draggin it out

Good god its the changing of the season.
I feel so raped so just follow me down.

FAKE IT. if you don't belong.

WOAHHH UR SUCH A FUCKIN HYPOCRITE.