I feel oh so very much better right now about all of this whole situation.
This might hurt, it's not safe. But I know that I've gotta make a change. I don't care if I break, at least I'll be feeling something. I don't wanna go through the motions. I don't wanna go one more day without your all consuming passion inside of me. I don't wanna spend my whole life asking, "What if I had given everything, instead of going through the motions?" No regrets, not this time. I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind. But in the meantime while I'm waiting for you babygirl, I am working on making myself a better and whole person. I'm. Not. Broken. Anymore. I think I'm finally feeling something. Cuz just okay is not enough.
Well that's what happens when you start listening to your heart irregardless of the consequences to it. If you realize that yeah my heart got beat up but I'm not dead, then it makes it easier to move beyond that and work on repairing yourself for when they come back into your life because then you're stronger and strength is appealing and magnetic and mysterious and love and all of the things that embody the core of who I am. I just forgot who I am for a while cuz I took the pain and let it enter me until there was no room for her anyways. ♥ ♥ |
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And if you're talking about what I think you were, I wouldn't consider it a good thing to be excited to get my ex if I have a boyfriend 