Haven't actually written anything in so long. My monthly challenges are going well (where I get it from- askheychris.livejournal.com. Educate yourself on this guy whenever you get the chance). I finished my no water challenge, and this month I'm doing no candy and sugary drinks. Anything like that. Anyway the reason that I wanted to write this is because right now I'm just chillin on the balcony of my new apparently, cant sleeP, and now I'm smoking a bowl. Gotta workin the morning so this sucks. I've tried chamomile tea, tried atavan, and now trying this. Just looking out qt the place. Seeing if I'm the only one stuck awake right now. I see two other lights on, two other people in my same position. I just think it's weird how many people o really "live" with. And right now only three of us are up. I don't know how to explain how that makes me feel, if you get it you get it. Also just wanted to say something about the fucking annoying ass dreams I keep having about my Ex. It seems that as of late, my subconscious is all about him right now. It's annoying cause I want to just forget that he still exists, still lives in the same area as me, breathing the same air I breathe. Goes to the same places I go. But the truth is, I would forgive all if I had the chance. And that's what they don't get; I still dream about him, I still think about him, and no matter how much I make fun of him and act like I hate him... I would take even just his friendship back if he would just talk to me. Apologize. And make it all go back to the way it was before.... If this blog doesn't make sense, you can blame that on typing this all on my iPod, how high I am, or autocorrect. |
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