I have only twice ever had truly suicidal thoughts.... this is the second time.
I am pathetic, looking for the easy way out. I will never take it, because there is always the chance of tomorrow, but my self destructive ways are not always enough.
The loss of family, the rejection of the man I love, and the home that is never there is driving me to darkness. I will never give up, but sometimes I am afraid of what I will do in those darkest moments. |