I had sex with my bestfriend and things turned out bad. He wanted nothing to do with me and he was probably the only person who kinda understood me. now i feel dumb, he knows all my secrets.. some pretty bad ones and i'm terrified he may tell them. He hurt me real bad. I had a miscarriage with his baby and i told him for the first time the other day and had no response. He's an ass but I think he just got sick of my issues so i tried to let him go but i missed him and now i'm just plain angry. i wish i could talk to him.. but i really don't know how or if i really want to. that's life right, full of disappointments. or at least mine.
Oh I know this feeling all too well. And it sucks, because years down the track you wish you had your best friend back, but the damage is done, it wouldn't be the same. SOrry your going through this.
Wow, he sounds like a jerk. Not a really great best friend. I'm sorry I can imagine how tough that must be when you thought you could depend on him and really trusted him and he let you down. Guys are serious dicks sometimes. It's like a freaking male disease or something.