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02/26/2010

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I've got a perfect life. 8-5 job, gorgeous children, loving spouse...we're the perfect little cookie cutter all-American family. My life is /perfect/. I want for nothing, my husband adores me, my children are well behaved and make good grades....I can't think of a thing that would make any of it any better.

I don't know why, but I fell into an affair. He's the polar opposite of my husband. Almost 20 years older then me (but sooo doesn't look it), spent time in prison (armed robbery - 2 counts, tattoos, piercings....A bad boy to the core. But, because of him, I almost look forward now to my husband's business trips, because it means he can stay and hold me all night, we can wake up in the morning together. It totally started out just as sex, but now, I'm completely smitten with him. And I know he is too. I keep using my marriage as an excuse not to make anything "offical" of it, but it is to the point that I am almost tempted to leave my husband. Which is, by the way, insane. He's an amazing man - he's no longer any danger, this I a quite assure of. But he's got two felonies on his record!

I've got a perfect life, why did I fall into this with him? And how do I get my life back? The idea of just cutting him out of my life...honestly hurts less then the idea of losing my marriage. And I know if my husband found out (which I am sure he eventally will) that shit would hit the fan. But it's my lover I want, not my husband. But my husband offers ultimate security.

With my husband, I can continue living my dream life. With my lover, I can feel like life is a dream.

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As much as I hate to say it, you have to do what makes you happy. You cant stay with someone just because they offer you 'security', or you'll never be truly happy. You'll always look toward extramarital affairs until you DO get caught, and when you do (as you said) the sh*t will hit the fan and the marriage will be destroyed anyway. You have to decide whether or not you love your husband enough to stay with him and only him. If he really is as great as you say he is, he deserves that. If you don't, then just leave as peacefully as possible, and be with the one who does make you happy. There's no reason to hurt a good guy in the process! They are few and far between! Good luck!

[Poetic Justice|0 likes] [|reply]

Why don't you go to your husband and talk to him about your lack of passion, lack of adventure. If you seriously drive it home, do the work you need to. Go talk to a professional. take a weekend sex seminar to get reconnected. If that all doesnt work, it is your life and you have to live it, if that means leaving your husband. then ok. but i am divorced and find great comfort in knowing that i did EVERYTHING could to try to make it work.

[BeccaRellyStar|0 likes] [|reply]

If it were me, I would do anything I could to make it work with my husband. You said yourself that leaving your lover would hurt less than leaving your husband. You are just having a little fun (maybe you got bored?), and you know what you have to do but you're putting it off as long as you can.

[June BrideStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Wow. I really don't have much sympathy for cheaters esp in these situations. It destroys more than you could ever imagine. Why would you do that? And with a convict as well? Girl you need to wake up.
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[Squirrelღ |0 likes] [|reply]

your leaving out one vital piece of thought... what could possibly make you so attracted to your new lover to want to leave your husband and scar your kids... you should indeed do what makes you happy, but you should think that you forever committed youself to you husband and kids when you said "i do"



but indeed, do what makes you happy, but do keep that thought in your mind.

[Ahhhmanda.|0 likes] [|reply]

We can't live our lives thinking that life is a dream. We all gotta wake up sometime. I have no sympathy for your situation. Wake up and bite the bullet. You made a commitment, a PROMISE. Stick to it. If you can't stick to that, what makes you think you'll stick with this new guy? Or the next guy?

And if he'll have this affair with you, knowing you're married..who's to say he doesn't have another girl on the side? Think it through. Better yet, don't. Stickwith your husband. Grow up.

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