I tell all my friends I'm ok and I smile and laugh and appear to have a good self esteem and am turning my life in a good direction...
secretly, I have attempted suicide on 3 different occasions and have only recently stopped cutting.
I can't afford to see a professional, and I'm afraid of being judged for having these thoughts. I don't want to be thought of as an "attention whore" to my friends, although since I am submitting this, I seem it anyway.
I just needed to let that out in some way, it's been eating at me for years... |