As much as it hurts, a part of me just wants to say fuck it you can have him (my son) because I feel like my own heart is too broken to even take care of him the way he deserves. I just don't know what to do.
At least you're not thinking of keeping him just for spite and are really looking at if you can or can't take care of him properly. Good luck with your decision!
Adoption wouldn't be a BAD thing if you had no other choice, at least you are choosing life. My sisters best friend just went through this, she decided on an open adoption where she got to choose the family and she gets to visit him anytime she desires. I don't know how old you are but for me, money would be a HUGE issue!
*hug*
i wish i had something awesome to say to you right now...
but i don't know what to say. i hope things get better.
work on healing your heart first. everything else will follow.
I agree with imaginary ordinary, I have a lot of friends who got unexpectedly pregnant, and were really worried about how they were going to take care of a baby. Not one of my friends gave up their babies, they found ways to take care of them because I hear once you have a baby, you get the pure definition of unconditional love, and you'll do anything for your baby. The best of luck to you! Remember there are services out there that can help you, welfare isn't a bad thing if you really need it!