I know we're not ready for kids, we're both young, you've got your career, I need to finish uni and find my own career.... But jeez, I want kids. Perhaps this is just a phase, and we need to at least see where this phase it going... will it hang around?
But truly, I want kids, with you... almost now. However, I recognise the need to wait, 2-3 years minimum..... It just makes me so sad.
The possibility that it was a miscarriage recently scares me. Something, that was ours, did I really kill it? I finally understand the consequences of my actions, and it scares me. I don't want something that is ours, you and I, to be lost; but JESUS, I never want you to resent me if I fall pregnant and everything you'd like to achieve as a young man is lost. I could never handle that. I want you to have the opportunity to achieve everything you want to, because there is so much you can achieve, ie: anything. |