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We Are Who We Choose to Be
by .Ad.Infinitum.

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Plenty of Fish

09/29/2011

Its been a busy couple of days. Its funny how busy you can be doing absolutely nothing. I've been playing World of Warcraft, trying to catch up on my coursework for college, watching Disney and Pixar movies with my son and moreover, trying to clean my apartment. My parents will be here in 3 weeks with my new car as long as all goes well, and that makes me excited! My parents say they got me a monte carlo with a sunroof. Boyfriend said what they got me is a muscle car and that it'll eat gas, but what's important to know is that it has a lot of ass behind it and I need to be careful. My response to all of it was, I don't know anything about cars, but if this car really is the nascar car as boyfriend says that it is- I'm going to look pretty retarded putting a carseat in the back of it!

College sucks at the moment. My school does 7 week courses, which is really nice because 7 weeks goes by super quickly. It sounds like it doesn't, but anyone in college- especially an online college, knows that the first week is always the easiest. Teachers usually want you to introduce yourself, maybe participate in some dumb discussion or complete a project that isn't really related to anything. Week two you get into the beginning of your text or lesson, which is good because teachers are still lenient in grading since the class is new and then by the third week you are half way through the course! Well my 7 week class teacher is ridiculous. I really believe she refuses to grade anything with an 100%. Because of it, I've accumulated 10 lost points and my grade has dropped down to a 90%. I've only gotten one bad grade in that class, and it was a C. Everything else I get is either some kind of A or very high B, but mostly As. She grades me with grades like 97.08, 72.03... Really? No teacher I have known has ever taken a partial point off. Who does that? I think its because she's a doctor, not a professor. Her name is Doctor-Professor I-Know-Everything and she is teaching sociology. So good luck arguing.

My exercising and weight loss plan kind of fluked out. Its been emotionally rough here recently. Boyfriend brought home a pizza he made specially for me- buffalo chicken, pizza hut doesn't offer it on their menu, and so I ate that. He went to Sheetz and got me a burrito, and so I ate that. He got me soda, and so I drank it. And I was limited myself to one cup of coffee a day, and I was drinking protein shakes and a lot of water... well I haven't been following through with those either. Its just so tough this time of year. Not only that, but Boyfriend actually thought enough of me to bring something for me. So this is where my troubles began. We had a really good week, and then we ended up having sex. I didn't want to, I usually never do. I told him in the beginning of the week that I just don't feel special or important anymore. I've told him this a million times, but by him bringing me food I felt special. Then we had sex. And then I leaned over to kiss him on the cheek and come out to my computer, and he told me to stop because it's complicated. Then he asked me what was wrong as if he didn't know. I called him yesterday and thanked him for helping me realize my place in the world- always the friend with benefits. Always the bridesmaid. You know how it goes. He said that it wasn't like that, and he apologized. I said no worries, I'm not mad at him, but I should have stayed on the couch. Last night he asked me if I was coming to bed and I told him it's best if I stayed out on the couch as to not complicate things further.

And to top it all off, I think I'm starting my period... so I feel sleepy, hurt, angry, fat, bloated and crampy. I really hate being a woman.

I plan on starting over my workout program today. When at first you don't succeed, try again right? I was using wrist weights for resistance, and now I have a resistance.. Cord? Band? I'm not sure what they're called, but they use them in the program so I figured I'd go get me one. I tried it out a little last night and it really hurt a lot.

Oh and my son is going through something where he wants to take his clothes off... he has figured out how to take all of his clothes off and no matter how many times I put his clothes back on, they come right back off again. I was cooking dinner and I my son came and pulled on my pants, and I look over and see his little caramel colored booty running away from me! And I got his pull-up, brought it back over to him and told him to go ahead and step in it, and he somersaulted over the couch and flopped around like a seal while laughing. ...Oh I love children.

Aaah.. its so nice to talk to you all again. Hopefully I'll talk to you all again soon!

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LOL 97.08. Really?

My classes go 8 week periods, I LOVE it!

Depending on the year of Monte Carlo, they're not all "muscle" cars. They were back in the day, but today, they're just sweet looking with some power! I adore Monte's, like 1980s style. ♥! I've always wanted one, then I hadda kid so no thanks. If it's newer, the backseats are bigger, but the older ones.... Not so much! Good luck, though! I think you'll like it!

Resistance bands work better than smaller weights. You just gotta remember how good you feel after you work out and to keep it that way! You can cheat on some things, pizza isn't all THAT bad if you don't have a pound of cheese on it, lol. My mom is a fitness guru and still eats pizza (homemade pizza, of course. She's a nut. )

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