Happy 2010! Resolution: Lose my insecurities

01/01/2010

Spent the new year with my man and his family. my kids stayed with their meme (my aunt) and i had a great time. this year one of my resolutions is to be confident in knowing that we are each other's b confident in our relationship and not argue and just enjoy each other. he really is my world and i want to KNOW that he knows that.... and i want to KNOW that he is all mine and that he feels the same for me. u kno... it's crazy because in the 3 years him and his ex were together he NEVER brought her around anyone but his mom and gma and aunts... i met his cousins last night and everything... and i have never had anyone be affectionate to me in front of ppl, i have always felt like they were ashamed of me... he told me he loved me, in front of his guy cousins (20 something yrs old) and kissed me and loved me... and he said it first i didn't. he didn't say it because he felt obligated he said it because he really wanted to. he really is amazing. how can i lose my insecurities about losing him to another girl? idk how i got so lucky to get someone like him????? he is great with my kids and that blows my mind because he doesn't have any and he could have another girl... who don't have kids... and who isn't as much of a hand full as i am... so i always ask myself why me??? not in a bad way??? but usually in my life when something seems too good to be true it usually is... and i mean don't get me wrong... we do argue but it's never over anything serious... it's always something stupid... mostly because of both of our insecurities... and he told me i have shown him things he has never seen... and been a person he never thought was out there. like last night i kicked it with him mom and cuz and he was in the kitchen with the boys... and i went in there like 3 times, like not even for a minute each time... but he kissed me each time and was like go back in with the women, and i was like i am not staying in here... i just wanted to see my baby for a minute. and he has never had that, his ex was possessive and had to be up his ass knowing what he was doin and wouldn't let him bond with his family... and i'm not like that and he told me how much he appreciated it i'm glad i can be that person he has never had. and it makes me so happy that he's good with my kids too, because i know that when we have one he will be an AMAZING father... but i don't want to talk your ears off... but just give me your advice... do you guys have insecurities about your relationships? does it cause a lot of problems? how do you lose them?