has been extreamly hard here lately. We are in the process of moving out of my Grandma's house into my other Grandma's basement apartment because we just can not afford the utilities at the house. Its a huge house, and it's just to much, and I can not expect my Grandma to pay them for us.
Well yesterday I got our storage unit to put most of our things in until we can get on our feet while we live at Grandma Margarets, and CHris was just acting different. So I said, why's it seem like you aren't moving with me. ANd he just kept about his business, so this led to a discussion in which he told me he wasn't coming with Cameron and I. He was going to split all bills evenly with me and continue being married to me, BUT live at his parents. Is it me, or does that sound like we will never make things work?
I don't want to loose him, he is my everything, but what do I do? He now has decieded to come with me after he saw how hurt and upset I was, but how long can we continue to live like this? I DONT WANT TO GET DIVORCED, I DONT WANT THAT AT ALL ! I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART!
What's so wrong with me? WHy can't he feel the same towards me? I feel so empty, and the only reason I keep chugging along is because of Cameron.
I guess this doesn't really make much since, but ever since our huge event back in March, it has taken all I have to stay strong and keep this marriage alive... but if I am the only one completely trying and seeing the positive of it all, and he isn't and thinks so negitivily about it all, why do we keep trying? |
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*hugz* have u tried counseling too if that might help? you know if you need anyone to talk to you can text me anytime
